Rewind || Calum Hood Fanfic

Chapter 20

Mona's POV

I've been thinking about him for the past weeks. It's killing me. Yeah I know that I've been very protective and pushy with him. But it was all for a reason I couldn't tell him. I needed him back. I needed to tell him what really happened.

"Mona?"

I snapped out of my daydream.

"Yeah?"

I asked Beth as we stood in line for starbucks.

"What do you want?"

She said as she took out her wallet.

"I'm not feeling Starbucks right now."

I gave her a small smile before sitting down at the nearest table.

I took out my phone looking through my contacts. My heart ached with pain when I came across 'Cal <3'. I haven't changed his name because I forgot to but I decided to leave it like that. I wanted to talk to him so I can tell him the truth. So he wouldn't think I was a complete jerk towards him.

I wasn't brave enough to actually call him so I texted him instead.

- Hey it's me...can we talk? please

After sending the text I felt stupid. he probably won't reply and think that I'm trying to get to him again. I wanted to go delete the text and get away from everybody but I couldn't.

He hasn't replied so I decided to go home to think and relax. I stood up and went by Beth to tell her I was leaving. Walking out of the Starbucks my phone buzzed. I took my phone out and my heart skipped a beat. It was from Calum. I got into my car before opening it.

- Why?

I don't know if he sent that annoyed or just sent that because he wanted to know. That's why I wanted to call. I thought about it as I started the car and texted him back.

- I need to explain everything.

I once again regretted sending that text. Maybe he was with Misty and he didn't want to talk. 10 minutes before I arrived at my house, my phone buzzed in the cup holder I put it in.

- ok

I gasped as I dropped my phone in my lap after a car honked at me for sitting at a stop sign for too long.

Wow I was pretty excited. I quickly took my keys out and unlocked my door running to my room. I took my phone and texted him back waiting for his reply.

- Can I call?

I sat on my bed anxiously waiting. I went over to change my clothes and heard my phone ring.

The caller ID was Calum. My hands were shaking as I pressed the call button.

"Hey!"

I said a little too high. I covered my mouth hoping he couldn't hear that I was nervous.

"Hello. What did you want to talk to me about?"

I was speechless. I don't know how long he waited for my reply but he did wait.

"I- I just wanted to explain myself and apologize."

My voice was shaking and I could feel myself about to cry. I bit my lip and ran my fingers through my hair thinking of ways to tell him.

"Mmhm go ahead."

I heard a rustle on the other side of the phone giving me a sign that he was sitting down on his bed. it was like old times when we would talk together on the phone in the evening when he would be on tour miles away. But this time is different.

"I just wanted to say that I'm sorry for being bossy and pushy and absolutely mean to - your girlfriend"

I inhaled deeply after saying the last two words. I could feel my eyes burning and my eyesight going blurry with the tears welling up in my eyes.

"It's-"

I cut him off before he could say anything.

"No. Calum you don't understand."

He went quiet so I continued wiping the tears away from my eyes.

"I want to say sorry for being too protective with you. I wanted to tell you why. Today. Right now."

He was still quiet. I wondered what he was thinking right now.

"It's just because, I don't know if you know this but back in highschool, do you remember Zach Fry?"

"Yeah."

I took a deep breathe before continuing.

"Well we went out and he told me that he was going to leave me for another girl."

I knew that Calum didn't care because he didn't care about me any more.

"I knew that you went out with Misty before and I heard that she was coming here soon."

I paused and breathed slowly again.

"I didn't want you to leave me so I tried to be protective to show you that I still cared for you. To show you that I-."

I stopped myself before I went too far.

"Sorry I didn't mean to-"

"Mona."

He finally spoke through the phone.

"It's okay. I forgive you."

I heard him sigh through the phone.

"I just can't do this right now that's all."

"Calum. I'm not doing anything. I'm not asking you back. I'm just telling you how I was feeling this past month."

I felt angry at him for assuming that I was trying to get him back. I clearly wasn't.

"Oh never mind then."

His voice was low and calm.

"So that's all I wanted to say. I just wanted you to have a better perspective of me. To leave on a better note than before."

My voice finally cracked on my last word.

"Mona. Are you crying?"

Suddenly his voice became soft and caring.

"No"

I tried to say my voice high from straining in the tears threatening to fall out.

"Mona please don't cry."

I held my mouth with my hand muffling the sniffs I was getting.

"Where are you?"

I stopped sniffing to answer him.

"At home."

"Ok, I'll be over in 30."

"Thanks."

I smiled wiping a stray tear away.

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