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I still had the key, of course I had the key I had been in charge of watering the plants while they were making their way across Europe.

I had only met Dan just months before that, and as far as I know Dan, Phil and my own family were the only ones who knew who I was.
We both shared a common interest, YouTube, well more so the same job but not really. I'm an animator who makes silly little videos about the embarrassing things that happen in my life, so I guess Dan and I shared a comedy style too.

I had met Dan at a YouTube meeting where a lot of big British YouTubers had a tour and a meeting with a lot of the head people and no one had any idea of who I was so no one seemed to talk to me.
We were having our lunch and the other YouTubers seemed already paired and grouped up, but I sat alone. I didn't really mind, I was kind of a loner anyway so I sat there at a table by myself eating crisps and doing what I always do, drawing.

The chair squeaked beside me and I looked over to see a giant of a man dressed in black now sitting next to me.

"Oh, hi Dan." I said simply.

"So you know who I am." He said and I felt eyes on what I had been drawing.
"I knew it. I knew your voice sounded familiar earlier when you asked a question. I know now from your drawing style you're (y/n) from (your YouTube name)"

"I am, I'm surprised you know. I mean it's not like I'm keeping it a secret from other YouTubers right now." I laughed as I held out my badge that said who I was and my YouTube name they had given us all upon entering here. Dan let out a chuckle.

"Oh that's right." He said now looking down at his own with the same thing. "I guess we're all morons here, Tom was actually arguing with me about who you were and I'm glad to see I was right."

"Oh, so you came over here to win a bet with Tomska, okay, I see." I held back a laugh.

"No, no, no, no, no." He took what I had said as a serious accusation... but it kind of was. I mean he would probably be sitting with Phil right now if he wasn't betting on who I was.
"I was just hoping I was right so I'd be able to meet one of my favourite animators of all time. You're literally like me but an animator and I have quite the love and respect for animation and art, it takes a lot of skill that I wish I had."
I kind of just thought he thought he had hurt my feelings or something with the bet thing and now he was trying to cover it over with compliments and saying I was his favourite.

"Liar." I called him out on it.

"No! Not at all. My forever favourite video of yours is the one where you explained getting your first dog the day you turned thirteen because your parents wouldn't let you have one and you had always wanted one but then it literally died the next day and you thought it was something you did and turns out you were just sold a sick dog as a child but now you are too scared to get a pet as an adult because of it scaring you for life even though you love dogs and animals." He summed up one of my videos. "How you drew the events was just amazingly comical."

"Okay. So I guess you weren't lying." I said.

We just sat at that table for our hour lunch and talked, it was really cool. Following that was adding each other on twitter, then DMs, then texting, then long phone calls and finally dating.

I looked at the painting, which I rarely did, hanging on his bedroom wall. It was me in my cartoonish style dangling off a crescent moon in space trying to reach him as he sat on a consolation of stars happily, that was how the whole relationship seemed for me. I was always trying to reach him, and I was always wanting him to reach back. I was never good enough for him I was a faceless youtuber and he had a book, a stage show, and posters plastered with his real face, a face that every other YouTuber knew, I was just a hollow drawing. He was always on his phone, and listening things he had to do or get done and I didn't really have that other than drawing and typical other YouTube stuff, his stage show was beyond my apprehension but that didn't stop me from supporting him any way possible.
I'm not saying he acted better than me or didn't seem to care about me, I'm just saying that while we had so many similarities there were also many many differences between us. The age was probably the biggest and the reason why I never thought he was serious in the beginning.

I'm eighteen and he's twenty four and that's always kind of bothered us both, we never talked about it, but I know it did. Age was one of the many reasons why we were never open with anyone about anything, along with the fact that it could ruin Dan's branding, expose my face to the public, and Dan also likes privacy for his relationships and loved ones.
I was too young and I should've known this relationship wouldn't have survived, honestly I was surprised when he started texting me, the first time he called me, asked to hangout with me and especially the day he asked me to be his girlfriend.

I paused gathering what things I had there to look at his bed.

"So, are you doing?" I asked as I crunched on popcorn on my bed, pausing my movie on my laptop just to talk to him because he had called.

"Just... just laying in bed." His natural voice was a bit of a mumble usually but this time he seemed to mutter because he sounded lost in thought. "I was thinking-"

"Nice job." I joked making him laugh and jokingly tell me to shut up for a second.

"I was thinking about stuff recently and how fun you are and funny, and how we've kind of just seemed to just get each other since we met a few months a go."

"It's cool isn't it? I think there's a lot of cool things about our friendship, you know? Like we've even been through a lot of similar situations and stuff. Kind of crazy right?"

"Oh god." He let out a strange awkward chuckle.

"What?" I asked.

"Nothing. Just... nevermind. I feel so embarrassed now." I could hear it in his voice but I just couldn't understand what was happening or what I did.

"What? I'm so confused? Were you going to say something?" I asked.

"Yes." He replied.

"Well say it." I urged.

"You know what I was going to say. I was going to ask you something."

"I don't know? Uh were you going to ask me on a date or something? I really don't know. Now I'm embarrassed for even putting that out there."

"(Y/n)! What do you mean? We've literally been on like five proper dates together!" He sounded like a mix of nervous and frustrated at this point.

Luckily everything began to click together in my head and realisation hit me hard.

"Oh. That's what those were." I muttered in disbelief as I just thought about everything.

"Listen, we can just drop this because I can tell you don't-"

"No! No!" I cut him off and tried to grasp the conversation back "I didn't- I just- I didn't think you liked me like that, I didn't even think of that as a possible option. Were you about to ask me to be your-"

"Yes." He now cut me off. "But if you don't see me like that..."

"Holy shit. Oh wow. No, I do. I like you. I'd love to." I had no idea what to say other than think of a way to say yes.

"Well then. I feel good about this." He laughed and I could almost feel the relief and calmness wash over both of us.
Too bad he was wrong.

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