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If only this was the first time I was asking myself what the fuck had I done.
I felt terrible.

He pulled me to his chest and was tracing soft circles on my back.

No longer did I think Phil smelled like him, no, he smelled like Phil.

I laid there silently appalled with myself. I continued to lay there until he fell asleep.
I wasn't sneaking off.
I made my bed and now I had to lie in it... no pun intended.

What would I say to him tomorrow?
How could I even say it?
He was going to hate me again, this time I'd be the awful one.

I looked over at him with the side of his face smushed against the pillow with his hair all a mess. He looked sweet and innocent and peaceful like a baby.

I moved my finger up to his forehead and gently pushed a loose curl away.

I could try.
I could just try and fall in love with him maybe I could love him just like I had before, maybe even better. Maybe this time it all would just be better.

Maybe if I told him I loved him enough times then is actually start to feel it.
But for now I would do the same thing that use to do with Phil and pretend he was him.

I was a little scared of Phil finding out what had happened between Dan and I because he had helped me try to get over it for so long. I was also afraid he would think I was awful for doing this and not having feelings for Dan or not wanting to take him back.

Thoughts and worries continually scrambled my mind for hours and hours until I was able to fall asleep next to Dan.

"Wake up." There was a whisper in my ear making me groan "you've been asleep all morning, it's like one." He gave a light amused laugh "I didn't think I wore you out that bad last night"
I groaned again.
"C'mon, were about to leave to the place Phil wanted to go yesterday. I'll hold your hand the entire time." He offered.
As a reply I put my pillow over my head and I heard him sigh.
"Fine then." He then removed the pillow from my head to kiss me on the cheek before replacing it. "I love you, I'll see you when we get back."
I still didn't reply and let him leave the room.
I still needed more time to think.

Should you hide what happened last night from Phil because he might be mad?

• Should you talk to Dan or go along with everything so you don't hurt him or make him mad and maybe find your feelings for him once again?

Note about choices: someone's bound to get mad at you, unless you chose the right combination (involving lying to everyone)

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