FGFF ~ Dan and Phil X reader interactive story

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"No Dan. I really don't want to talk about it, it doesn't feel right. They're pretty serious things to talk about when we really aren't together." I stated.

"Seriously?" He asked "Ouch." The room went quiet for a few seconds. "I thought we were joking about that whole thing but..." he seemed really hurt.

"Dan, I just really don't want to talk about them." I said remembering what Phil had said about Dan being super serious about me now, it terrified me.

"It's not even that." He said.

"What is it then?" I felt confused, why couldn't he just let this go?

"This isn't even real to you. I thought the friend thing was a joke but... it's not to you. I've been doing everything right, or at least trying to, and it's just not enough for you. First you wanted me to be more serious about this and now that I am you don't even accept it. What is this? Do you even have any idea what you want?" He ranted.

"I know I don't want to talk about marriage or children with you, that's- that's just ridiculous! Also I find it a little stupid that you're getting so upset over this." I argued.

"You're just entirely missing the point here-"

"What is the point Dan?!" I was now frustrated with him and just wanted to go to bed.

He then scoffed
"What am I even doing?" He said as though realisation had just hit him like a ton of bricks falling on his head. "Why am I even talking with you about this?"
At first I thought he had realised how dumb this argument was.
"You're only eighteen, what am I doing here? Of course you don't want anything real, you're too young to even understand."

"What?!" I was now offended that he was basically calling me a child just as his parents had. "How dare you tell me I don't understand, how dare you treat me like you know more or that I'm lesser because of my age. It doesn't matter how old I am I still have real feelings and I can still make my own decisions. If anything I'm the mature one here for not wanting to have a baby or marry a man that left me!" I got out of bed and put my jeans on.

"You don't understand what I'm saying here! You're only eighteen you couldn't possibly-" he sat up in the bed and said but I was so angry at him right now I wasn't about to let him utter another word that would hurt me.

"I couldn't possibly what, Dan? Not understand? I can't feel complex emotions? I can't make life altering decisions against things? I'm not a fucking toddler, Jesus Christ! I'm just as capable of anything as you are so stop treating me like I'm emotionally or developmentally inferior to you somehow! You know what? I'm more inferior and if you don't fucking believe it just compare our subscriber count and the views on our videos, because not only am I just as smart as you but apparently I'm more superior in the comedy department as well. Fucking. Ask. Anyone. And even if I was thirty I still wouldn't want to marry you or have your bloody child!" I said with poison in my voice before I left the room and then the flat.

I just started walking. The night air was slightly chilly but it didn't do anything to numb the thoughts and slew of regrets in my mind.
I didn't know if I regretted everything I had said in there or wether I regretted not staying away from Dan when Phil had told me about Dan's seriousness towards me.

I felt my phone go off in my pocket and I swore if it was Dan I'd toss the damned thing into a sewer drain, but it was just Phil, at least I hoped it was and not Dan calling from Phil's phone because he knew I wouldn't answer it for him.

I decided to take the chance and answer the phone.

"If this is Dan I'll snap your neck." I answered.

"Woah! Woah! Woah! It's just me." Phil's voice replied. "What happened? Are you okay?" He asked with concern. "I heard you two fighting and the door slam and now Dan's locked himself in his room and pretty sure he might be crying. What's happening?"

• Should you tell Phil everything or should you say everything is fine and avoid talking about it all again?