The next day - Tuesday - everyone seems to be acting as if nothing happened . well except me and j . we know exactly what happened . j and Liam made a pact that night .
"promise me that we will stick together no matter what Liam .. I know I'm not the best big sister but I love you . even though were not really that close your still my best friend . I promise that I'll always be there for you .. I'm so sorry I didn't notice before" she said softly as we still sat on the floor . her embrace tightening in the slightest .
It kind of makes me sad to see her like this . she shouldn't have to see me like this . she shouldn't have to deal with me like this . and the worst part is that she doesn't even know the whole story . she's crushed now imagine what she would be like if I told her the whole truth .. but she's making a promise to me .. and promises aren't broken right ? I trust j with my life .
"I promise j . I'm so sorry you have to deal with this .. i-I'm just so scared . I don't know what to do anymore . but I promise we'll stick together . I promise j .. I promise" I repeat letting the tears fall .
I made a promise to her and I plan on keeping it . I'm glad she's helping me because honestly .. I'd probably be dead right now .
I made my way to the door and grab my bag checking my pockets for my phone before exiting the house . as I'm walking I take a minute to look at my surroundings when I stop . I used to just look around and I would calm down but lately so much has happened . I breathe in and close my eyes opening them slowly only to yelp in surprise .
"Jesus Jessica don't do that" I say quietly putting a hand over my heart . I didn't even notice her walking by me . I almost pissed myself . she just chuckles softly taking my arm and continuing to walk . I try not to wince since the cuts on my arms are still healing well the deep ones at least .
We near the school but I quickly stop . I know me and j are closer and everything but I still remember her being embarrassed of me in school . I mean I get my ass beat and everyone knows me as the queer kid or the freak . plus she's popular and I don't want people saying stuff to her . we already have to deal with that at home now .
"what ?" she asks when she turns around to look at me . I take a shaky breath looking around and making sure no one popular sees .
"umm .. well its just your .. ya know popular and well i-I'm ... not" I say quietly looking down at my old converse . she chuckles softly which makes me look up at her in confusion .
"Liam I know I said that stuff before but I don't care anymore . your my brother and I love you , plus we made a promise and I don't plan on breaking it" she says giving me a small smile before grabbing my arm again and leading the way .
The walk to the school doors is a little weird . I can see and hear people whispering .
"ewh is that Jessica ?"
"why is she walking with him ?"
"hes such a fag "
I sigh and put my head down . this is going to get back I can feel it . right as were about to make our way inside some douche decides to speak up .
"why are you talking to queerdo Jessica ?" he says giving me a look of disgust . I sigh wow how original never heard that one before douche . this is why I hate people .
"shut the hell up Ryan don't talk about my brother like that before I beat your ass" she snaps leaving him stunned . I hope no one gives her shit for this . I don't care if it's me I'm more worried about her safety . we walk into the school building people already whispering . I mean really its not that surprising is it ?
"j you should go to class I don't want you to be late" I whisper to her . she nods telling me to meet her here in the afternoon . I nod before walking to my locker . I put in my locker combination and take a look at the little mirror in my locker . the bruise isn't as bad but its still there . I groan and then feel myself being slammed into the ground .
"shit" I curse silently . I look up and see none other than Chris . what a surprise ..
"aww did queerdo get his ass beat again ?" he laughs ok seriously that is the worst insult anyone could come up with . I roll my eyes and try to stand but hes not having it . he pushes my shoulders roughly making me fall back down . oh god please make this quick . and it is quick . a couple of insults 3 punches and 2 kicks later I'm in class .
He managed to get me in the jaw and kick my shin but I guess it could be worse . this isn't the worst hes done . I sigh and sit in my chair . this is the class I have with zany . I've been avoiding him for obvious reasons but he still tries to talk to me . I quickly put my head down when he walks in the class .
"hey Liam" he says in his normally friendly voice . I resist the urge to groan out loud and just settle for ignoring him . he sighs and takes a seat next to me . shit . please don't . the bell rings and the teacher walks in .
"group activity today 2 people per group . you must complete this activity-" I tune her out . this is good because well no one ever picks me and I'll be alone . great .
"zany who's your partner ?" the teacher asks as she comes by handing us the worksheet . I still keep my face hidden from zany however .
He jerks his thumb towards me "this guy" he says turning to face me . fuck shit no please why ?! the teacher nods before going to the next group .
"so Liam how's-" he goes quiet not even finishing his sentence . on instinct I look at him and his eyes widen before he reaches out to touch my jaw . I flinch away from his hand making him sigh and give me those sad eyes .
"Liam what happened" he says softly . please stop this please I beg to no one in particular . I look down at my lap and ignore him . he touches my shoulder and I stiffen instantly standing up and practically running out of the classroom . oh god he touched me . I hate it when people touch me . I only let j or mom touch me occasionally . ugh I felt like throwing up from his touch .
Don't get me wrong I like zany and all -not like that , ok maybe a little- but every time someone touches me it feels like their his hands on me .. I dry heave and run to the bathroom throwing up in the nearest toilet . I throw up everything until there's nothing left . I lean back against the stall door and pull my phone out opening anew message .
To j:
Please can you take me home I just threw up ? ):
I hit send and immediately I get a reply saying to meet her at the front doors . I stand up and flush the toilet . my legs shaking with every step I take . I rinse my mouth out before walking to the front of the school . j is waiting anxiously by the doors .
"are you alright Liam ?" she asks grabbing my face and looking at the new and old bruises . I just nod a little as she walks me outside . sadly we have to walk home not that its far its just I feel like passing out and that would freak her out .
We make it home an hour later due to my slow walking and me having to stop to throw up once or twice . oh god I didn't know it would be this bad . maybe I'm sick . I have been feeling a little worse but I didn't think much of it .
She leads me up to my room laying me in bed taking my shoes off and wrapping the duvet around me . she goes in the bathroom and comes back with a trashcan setting it beside my bed . I give her a grateful smile .
"do you want some soup or maybe you should rest .. maybe we should go-" I stop her rant from continuing .
"its fine j thank you" I say softly . she sighs and nods telling me to call her if I need anything before exiting the room . I close my eyes after a while and open them again .
I close them and with met with zayns sad and worried eyes . I groan and squeeze my eyes shut tighter . why zany why must you always be in my mind .
I groan one last time before letting out a sigh of defeat and let the images of zany take over my mind . eventually helping me fall asleep .
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Oblivion
FanfictionNo one know what's happening at home to Liam. No one sees how much he hates himself. No one sees how friendless and alone he really is. Until zayn comes along. Will he help Liam get better and feel good about himself? Or will he only make things wo...