Lani
"If I called Alex would that be a bad move? Would that make me look desperate?" I leaned on Ki while scrolling past Alex's number.
I don't want to get back with Alex but I wanna check up on her... to see if she's okay.
"Yes, it would make you look desperate," Ki said snatching my phone.
"Well you're single so what would you know." I scoffed taking my phone back and called Alex. It didn't even ring meaning she ignored my call once she saw my name!
"Maybe she put her phone down for a second." I weakly smiled flipping my hair and called her again.
Alex knows I don't like being ignored... it's not like she cares about me anymore.
"Told you." Ki chuckled as I gave her the finger.
"Man fuck you and Alex."
"I know you wanna fuck me, who wouldn't wanna fuck me?" Ki smiled as I got on top of her.
"You're not gonna put me in this mix between you and Alex. If you tryna get nasty then get nasty with Alex, not me." Ki shook her head and lightly pushed me off her.
"Is my body that ugly?" I mumbled under my breath laying on my back.
"Lani, I didn't say that. I just think that there'd be a lot of problems if I hooked up with you."Ki looked over at me and I didn't say anything.
I know my body isn't appealing but there's something there that confirms I'm a girl.
"Alex doesn't want a little boy body and neither do you!" I huffed rolling onto my side facing away from her.
"Lani, I'm not gonna like your body by having sex with you, I don't work like that." She cuddled up into playing with my hair.
"Your body is different from mine in every way possible body, of course, Alex would cheat on me, who wouldn't ?" I have absolutely nothing to offer.
"What don't you like about yourself?"
"It's not about what I like, it's about what Alex likes," I said softly.
"You can't make anyone else happy if you're not happy yourself." Ki pulled me closer then wrapped her arms around me.
"Why do you have to be right about everything?" I chuckled turning to face her.
"I don't know but we can get nasty if you still want to." I kissed my teeth making Ki laugh.
"I'm just playing but what you can do is give me a kiss," Ki said giving me a smile as I kissed her cheek.
I'm happy with myself whether Alex likes it or not, at the end of the day I'm me!
Alex
I have a new girlfriend if that's what you want to call her but I prefer not to. I talk to her when I think about Lani other than that there's no point in having her around. Her name is Tracey or something like that I don't remember
She's a nice girl but she's really, really annoying. Every time I see something about Lani on Instagram Tracey will hover over my shoulder and snatch my phone.
We don't kiss on the lips and she's not allowed to take pictures of me. I'm ready to get rid of her because she deleted Lani's number on my phone and I almost kicked her head in.
I sat on the living room floor playing GTA 5, unfortunately, Trey had to go home. My mom said he's missing too many days of school or something like that.
"Hey, baby." Tracey sat behind me touching my hair and I moved my head away from her.
"You know I don't like when you touch my hair," I said bluntly putting my controller down tying up my hair.
"Can't do nothing with you." She said kicking me in my back.
"Cause you're not my shorty that's why." I picked up my controller shaking my head
"Why do you have to be so rude to me?" She kicked me in my back and I turned around slapping her calve.
"My bad, you know I mean no harm," I said as Tracey got up walking away. "Can you make me a sandwich?" I asked leaning against the couch.
"Fine."
"Thanks, babe." I gotta make shorty work for my appreciation.
"Yeah."
I could tell she was smiling, she likes it when I call her 'babe' although I don't do it often it makes her feel special.
I feel bad for putting her in such a position, Tracey wants to be my girlfriend but she knows where this relationship stands.
"Here you go." She sat the sandwich in front of me as I put my controller down and ate it. I wouldn't say it was the best sandwich but I've had better.
"You don't like it?"
"I like it, baby, thank you." I smiled holding her hand. I know I said she's not allowed to kiss me but I feel bad for the poor girl.
"Can I get a kiss?" I puckered my lips while she bent down and kissed me. It was nice but it wasn't like Lani's kisses.
Lani plays hard to get when it comes to kisses, and when she gives in she does the nastiest things possible.
I can't stop thinking about Lani. I want my baby around me again. The thought of Lani moving on to someone else breaks my heart. Lani was made for me and only me.
"You miss your ex and it's obvious you have me around as a distraction. Alex, I can't live like that." Tracey kissed my cheek giving me a sincere smile.
"It was a fun run but I think you should get your lady back." Tracey winked before leaving.
I never called Tracey a bitch or anything like that because I had respect for her and she was very positive.
If I don't get Lani back by Christmas then my life is officially over. My mom doesn't know we broke up and I'd like to keep it that way. My mom adores Lani because she brings the good out in me.
My past relationships weren't the best and they all changed me in negative ways, but Lani has hope for me.
I do regret the hurtful things I said to her when we were arguing and I wish I could take them back. They say you see a person's true colors when they're angry.
Everything I said to Lani isn't even close to how I really feel about her. I can't wait to put the world in her tiny hands, but first I need to get her back.
Boom
