Not So Normal

Chapter 66

~Elissa's POV~

   I spend a whole week at Lindsey's apartment in New York City. I have done literally nothing since I got here. The first night Lindsey got a call from Tyler, but I didn't want to talk to him, so I told her to tell him I didn't feel like talking to anyone. I've also been ignoring any texts and calls on my phone. I probably have like 30 missed calls from Niall.

   I've barely eaten anything the last few days, and I have pretty much been lying in bed and crying the whole time. I'm still in shock. Lindsey keeps trying to convince me to let Niall explain himself, but I really, really, really don't want to hear anything Niall has to say. I need more time to compose myself and get over the fact that I'm not getting married anymore. I knew dating Niall would only end badly, and I shouldn't have gotten so attached. Celebrity relationships never work out.

   It's too bad, really.  We could have been the new power couple. Our kids would have been so cute and everyone would of loved them. Maybe our ship name would even become a widely-used thing. But not anymore.

   I just want to stay at Lindsey's house forever and never go back home, but she comes home from work and tells me that she's leaving to tour Europe with her orchestra. I have to leave her place and go somewhere else. I really don't have anywhere else to go besides home, so I book a flight for LA and text Tyler to pick me up when my flight gets in.

   Lindsey drives me to the airport and tells me to call her if I need absolutely anything. She hugs me forever and I swear she sheds a tear before she lets me go into the airport. I have to tell her not to cry, instead of the other way around.

   My flight back to LA is very uneventful. No one is sitting next to me on the plane, so I don't have to talk to anyone. The stewardess tries to engage me in conversation, but she quickly figures out that I'm not in any condition to converse with her, or anyone. When we land in LA I go straight to the baggage claim and Tyler is already there.

   "I'm so sorry," he says, hugging me. I cry into his shoulder for a minute, but I have to compose myself. The public doesn't need to see this. I'm sure they'll find out about all this eventually, but I don't need rumors swirling already. As soon as I have my suitcase we rush out of the airport to Tyler's car. We drive home in silence, and I feel bad because I know Tyler wants to ask about what happened, but I really don't want to talk, and I'm glad he can see that.

   When Tyler pulls into our garage and turns the car off, he turns to me, a stern expression on his face.

   "I'm really sorry in advance. Don't get mad at me, okay?" he says. I shrug it off since I have no idea what he's talking about. Maybe the house is just a mess. I get out of the car and walk inside, ready to go upstairs and lock myself in my room. I squeal in surprise when I find Niall sitting in the kitchen. I immediately turn around to walk back out, but Tyler is in the doorway to stop me.

   "What the hell, Tyler?" I whisper angrily. He bites his lip; he looks scared of me.

   "You need to talk to him. Hear him out, okay? For me?" he attempts. I groan and roll my eyes.

   "I'm not talking to him, Tyler. I'm sure he told you some story trying to make himself look better, but he broke my heart and I can't deal with him right now," I say, not caring that Niall's hearing all of this.

   "Elissa, you're not leaving," Tyler says, looking less scared of me now.

   "TYLER LET ME OUT!" I practically scream. Tyler winces and is about to move out of my way, but I stop dead in my tracks when the other person in the room finally speaks.

   "Elissa, please," Niall begs, his voice cracking. My eyes go wide and I almost gasp. He sounds awful. I slowly turn around and really look at him. His eyes are red, just like mine. Has he really been crying? Maybe I should give him a chance to explain himself.

   "You have three minutes to explain yourself," I say bitterly. Tyler quietly shuts the door behind him, but he doesn't move away from it. It's probably a good thing, I'd probably try to run. Niall takes a deep breath and begins his excuses.

   "I know I messed up bad, Elissa. It was a huge mistake. I'm so used to going and getting shit-wrecked after the last show, and I wasn't thinking about what could happen. I got way too drunk to process anything that was happening. I swear I never would have let another girl touch me if I had been any less drunk. It's 100% my fault, and there is no excuse for what I've done. But I am still in love with you, Elissa. No one could ever be as amazing as you are. I was so excited to see you, and when I found your ring on the table at the hotel, my heart shattered." He pulls a chain out from under his shirt, and I'm surprised to find my ring on his necklace.

   "When I saw the pictures I knew that there was no way I could fix this, but I regret what I did so much and I want to fix this so badly. I swear I will do anything to get you back, Elissa. You are the love of my life, and I don't think I could ever love anyone else as much as I love you. Please give me another chance," he whispers the last sentence, and my heart breaks. But I don't think I'm ready to forgive him. There's a minute of complete silence before I say anything.

   "I need time to think," I whisper, running out of the kitchen. I lock myself in my room and throw myself onto my bed, sobbing. Niall broke my heart into a million tiny pieces, but I can't imagine my life without him. But could he prevent something like this from ever happening again? I mean, he's Irish for crying out loud, it's not like I'm going to get him to stop drinking.

   But then again, I think if it was the only way to get me back, he would give up anything. From what it looks like, he's been hurting just as much as I have. I think that if he can promise he just won't get that drunk ever again, he'll be okay.

   I desperately want Niall back, but I think it's going to be a while before I can really forgive him. Maybe I can tell him to go visit his family for a couple weeks and then come back and we can try to get back to normal. I think that's what I'll do. I think he'll cheer up if he sees his family, since he hasn't seen them for a really long time.

   I walk to my door and get ready to leave my room, but I hear Tyler and Niall quietly talking, and I suddenly can't bring myself to talk to Niall right now. I need to calm down before I talk to anyone.

   I strip out of the clothes that I traveled in and get into the shower in my bathroom. I stand in the stream of steaming water for what seems like forever, just thinking about everything that's going on. Should I really be giving Niall another chance this quickly? But should it have taken me this long to give him another chance? I guess I may have reacted a little too harshly. It's not like he slept with that girl or anything. I feel really awful about all this now. While I know that Niall was the root of this problem, I definitely made it worse.

   I get out of the shower and get dressed in sweats and a tank top, not bothering to redo my hair or makeup. I honestly don't care what I look like right now. All that matters is getting Niall back, however slow and painful that process might be.

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I really don't like writing about Nissa not being together. But everything can't just be like a fairytale, so something bad had to happen.

And I'm sorry I haven't updated much lately. Now that AP testing is over, I should have this week and the first part of next week to hopefully update a couple times. But I still have 3 weeks of school left, so who knows what will happen...

But once I'm out of school, updates will be coming a LOT more often. I'll probably finish this story this summer. I'm so excited to write the end of this!

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