coffee shop. (COMPLETE)

chapter seven.

"cause it's been another perfect day with ya
wanna lay with ya
spend the night with ya
then spend my life with ya, alright"

☕️🍂

Naila Brathwaite.
December 20, 2015.
Marina del Rey, California.

Straddling Kai's hips, I was poking around on his face waiting for my baby to wake up because I was really bored. It's crazy how quickly this all has happened. I never even thought about being in a relationship after the way Kalil treated me. Even before Kalil, I have absolutely zero trust in any male figure in my life. My father and brothers did terrible things to a vulnerable little girl who they were supposed to protect, and they not only harassed me and made my life a living hell but they blamed me for all of their wrongdoing. They hated me from the time I was born and was made to feel like it was all my fault for my entire life. Kalil was supposed to be my sanctuary away from them, but instead he was an extension of all of the pain and hurt they caused me. At the age of 13 my two older brothers began taunting and fondling me until one day my oldest brother molested me while I was asleep. I remember it as if it were yesterday, and it continued until I got with Kalil. I ran off with him and was barely ever at home so they had absolutely no opportunity to. I still will never understand why they chose to do that to me if they seemed to hate me so much, but I was still actively struggling with getting over the traumatic things I went through as a developing girl. I didn't even know I was bawling my eyes out until I saw Kaison staring up at me looking frantic. I was in hysterics at this point, while he wrapped me up in his arms rocking me back and forth.

"Baby what's wrong? Did I do something? Baby please tell me what's wrong, I'm worried about you love."

"I-it's nothing...just thinking about the past. I'm so scared of this, baby. I hate putting you through all my bullshit when this is never what you asked for. I don't know how you do it.."

"I already know this is everything I want and more! I'm not a man who wants a girl for one thing and one thing only. If I really want someone, I want all of them and my love I want all of you! I mean that! No matter what, you should know that I will be right by your side. If I wasn't sincere, would I really be living in your place right now helping you while you recover from a seizure? No, I wouldn't. So baby can I please ask that you don't doubt me anymore. I really want to make you happy and whatever may make you happy, I'm glad to provide."

Never in my life had I met a man who was so compassionate and loving to someone he truthfully didn't know that well. His eyes read sincerity, and I had to stop myself from crying any more than I already had because I was so completely overwhelmed with emotion because of this man. Being all wrapped up in him was a feeling I never wanted to let go of. I had this sense of security when I was around him, which was something extremely strange and unfamiliar when it came to any man in my life. What we had going on was genuine and even if it only has been official for a very short time, I was so sure about what I wanted to do when it came to Kai.

"What's on your mind baby? You just over there smiling and looking at me and shit."

"Just thinking. You wouldn't believe how much you mean to me already. Some may think we're rushing but fuck them, you know? All that matters is that we make each other happy. Now let's get dressed and get ready for a fun day on the water! Do you get seasick because I do and I have some pills if you need some."

"No baby I'll be okay. Go get your fine ass dressed and meet me in the lobby when you're done okay?"

"Well I was thinking maybe you'd wanna help me? Maybe help me pick out a bathing suit to wear, huh? You don't have to if you don't wanna."