Swapped

Chapter 31

Natasha

Khalil and I had been kicking it for a few months and I had him right where I wanted him. So what are you waiting for I asked myself. I pictured Tee Tee looking at me sadly  "you caught up Ta Ta."
I’m not caught up Tee Tee I said to her in my mind and her response was "I guess he played me again."
Nah Tee Tee it aint even like that, but wasn't it, I heard my own voice saying to myself. My mother had called me last night. My aunt had heard from Sweet Pea that we were dating. Now my Aunt who lost her child had heard I was dating Khalil. I started crying because although our family was dysfunctional we were close. Aunt Teresa was the youngest of four sisters and she was the coolest Aunt. She still knew what it was like to be young. She listened without judgement but she had flaws. Like her boyfriend Will. She had been with him consistently for the past  ten years. Every since Tee Tee was six. Before him there was man after man, my Aunt was a free spirit.  Will started molesting Tee Tee shortly after they met, and  the only person she told was me. When they found her suicide note I made the mistake of saying "I should of said something" and Sweet Pea heard my comment. "How long have you known?" He had asked me.
"Since it started when we were six." I had responded. I was not thinking I was in shock. Sweet Pea went in on me so fast that I just broke down. "You stupid bitch! Do you not know what a cry for help Is. How could you not tell anyone, better yet why did you not tell me?" He had demanded.
I had no answer accept "She ask me not to say anything. I was afraid to because she said he told her not to tell." Saying it out loud to someone else made it worse. I knew that I should have told. I came close to doing it so many times but I never did. Tee Tee was dealing with a lot. Part of it was my fault she ever crawled on that ledge.  I owed her something. I failed Tee Tee and truthfully at the same time I felt Khalil. I saw him and I had tried not liking him, but Khalil was attentive and sensitive. He wasn't fake. I knew without a doubt he regretted how he handled Tee Tee but he was trying  to make amends. At the same time Khalil had done damage. I had stopped answering Sweet Pea's call because he was rushing me to destroy  this person that I truthfully thought was everything. When I stopped answering Sweet Pea's calls he outed me. First my mother called me yelling at me "What the hell is this that I'm hearing from Sweet Pea. Tell me it's lies and your not laying up with the same boy that made that video with of Tee Tee? Do you know my sister just called me bawling. Natasha this better be bullshit!" She had yelled.
"Ma I can explain" I protested. She flipped though. My words made her more furious. She started to cry.
"Oh my God it's true Ta Ta how could you.  I can't even talk to you." My mama hung up on me. I figured I'd wait until she calmed down then call back, but it snow balled. First two of my females called threatening to fuck me up on site, then when I called my grandmother she didn't answer the phone. When she finally did she just said "Natasha I think it best you dont come home for the  holidays. I will pray for you." To hear my grandmother say to not come home. Then my birthday came, I got no calls. That crushed me my family made a big deal when it came to birthdays and holidays. Now hear I was alone. The one person that had called was Khalil. So now I had a choice to make and it was killing me I picked up my phone and called Sweet Pea “Hey pretty boi what’s up” I said sweetly into the phone. Sweet Pea wasn’t feeling me these days.

”What your phony as want” he snapped.

“Where that come from Sweet Pea” I asked innocently.

“Don’t play with me bitch you dirty how you all boo’d up with the reason Tee Tee ghost. I aint got no words for you. Don’t call me unless you on some real gangsta shit, fake ass bitch” he snapped. I could tell he meant that and I knew it was time to act before he started in and me again. “Wow and I called to see if you were ready to do this” I smacked my mouth “Now who playing?”

“Now that’s what I’m talking about! When is it going down” he asked?

“Tomorrow night I’m going to get a room at the Holiday Inn and you ready for this” I said sounding hyped.