BTS SUGA Oneshots 《COMPILATION》✓

Tears of Happiness

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Today has been a rough day for both of you. No, actually it's not only today, but lately. You and your boyfriend Yoongi keep argued each other and it's not even only a small argument.
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Some are small, but if they keep happening it become big and some are big one as well.
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"You know I was busy! I'm trying to find a space to breathe!" He yelled at you coldly through phone before hung up the phone.
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That was last week.
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Then, like usual. He will ended up in your apartment next day, hugging you and apologized.
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"I'm sorry, I know I was wrong. I was so busy and I got too emotional. It's my fault to throw them at you. I'm so sorry, Jihye." He was trembling, and of course you'll forgave him.
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You know how Yoongi is, you know him well. Even though he's cold outside but actually he's very warm and soft outside. He only show that soft side of him to the people that he love dearly, family, BTS's members and of course you.
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So, it's not like you're stupid or blinded by love, it's just you know he didn't mean it when he yelled at you. He's stressed and you understand it very well. 3 years of relationship with him, there are lot of ups and downs.
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You won't give up on him that easy.
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But few days ago, before their final concert start both of you were in arguments again, and this time it's because of his silly jealousy.
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You were with him in the company along with the boys as well. They were practicing and you decided to go there since you miss Yoongi. While they were on their break, you'll come to his side and talk to him, care about him but somehow he looks annoyed?
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He didn't treat you like usual and being cold with you instead. You make a guess that it might be because the members are around and probably he don't want them to tease him. So you shrug it off, but not long after that he left the room.
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You were about to follow him, but—
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"Let him go, Jihye. He might need fresh air. He'll come back though." Jin told you nicely and you agreed with him.
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Maybe he just left to toilet?
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You thought. So you continue joking around with members.
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Time passed and you were wondering what takes Yoongi so long, so you decided to looking for him but when you turn around you spot his cold face in the door way.
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1 second, 2 seconds, he turn around and slam the door closed.
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"Min Yoongi! Why are you so childish? Why you slammed the door?"
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"Why I can't do that? Because it will interupt your time with Jin hyung? Huh? What? I know he's more handsome than me, but that doesn't mean you can cheat behind me!"
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"W-what? Cheating? With Jin? Seriously, Yoongi—"
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"I heard he held you from following me earlier, why? You should've following me! Don't you even notice I was mad all the time? Stop being so close with them! You are my girlfriend!"
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"N-no! It's not like that, listen Yoongi! I don't know you were mad! I thought you're just—"
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"Enough, Jihye! I'm tired. Just- please go back now and don't come to find me in company and dorm. Let's talk later. I'll call you."
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His last word still lingering in your ears. Your tears willingly flow down everytime his voice echoing in your mind. Since that day, he didn't make a call nor visit you. You know it's because of their final concert. That's why you decided to make a visit on the last day.
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Now, with all the flashback of the recent painful fights and you saw him burst out to tears like this in front of you while doing his ment, your heart broke for more.
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Yes, Jungkook was crying as well, and most of members are tearing, but Yoongi. Yoongi cried a lot that he can't even continue what he wanted to say for awhile. You feel like suffocated, can't breathe properly, feel hurted when you saw him like that.
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Not only because you know how he started from basically zero until he reach this far, but also you were blaming yourself for not being there.
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For not understand him enough.
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For let him pass this alone.
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For adding burden for him.
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The moment you saw him crying, you feel like hugging him and never let go. You shouldn't have left when he told you to, you should've stay and hug him. You should've—
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"Jihye." His low voice proceed to your ears, as you saw him walking to you wearing small smile and weak movements.
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You embraced him in your arms as he drowned in your warmness.
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"I'm sorry and thank you. I'm sorry for my last harsh words to you and accused you for things. I know I keep apologized but I also keep repeating my mistakes. That's why I thank you, for always being here, forgiving me and accepting me again in your arms." He muttered lightly while you still sobbing.
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"Ssshhh, don't mention about it. I love you, of course I'll always forgive you. I will never leave you, Yoongi. Don't cry anymore, I can't stand it. Really." You muttered back, patting his back.
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"Said the one who still crying." He chuckles and parting a bit from you, cupping your cheeks and wipe away your tears. "I'm okay. I'm happy now, because you're here, and I'm here with the members, and army outside. I'm happy, my dear. Even though I'm happy, sometimes there are tears. That's the tears of happiness."
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You can't reply anything but still sobbing while smiling. Yoongi can't help but grinning along with you as he pull you back to hug you again.
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"I love you, Jihye. Thanks for being the reason behind my happiness tears." He muttered to her, not realizing he was shedding tears again, tears of happiness.
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