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Secrets

You were sitting now in the waiting room, waiting for your plane. You let out a sigh as you saw your wallpaper on your phone. It was the picture of Yoongi that you got secretly, yes you're secretly in love with him and no, he's not your boyfriend, well for you, he will never be your boyfriend, despite how much you love him.

FLASHBACK

You were in your company and just got a good news. You got a full scholarship for your music education in Paris. You were so happy but also scare in the same way. You've promised to yourself that you will confess your feelings to Yoongi if you get the scholarship, now you finally got it and you don't know how to tell Yoongi.

He's your senior and also your trainer. You've been adored him ever since, he was generally cold and silent but these days since he helps you to get your scholarship you feel like he become more open to you. He smile often to you and that's why you decided to confess at least before you left but you can't believe, this is his response.

"You liked me? Cool." He said as he avoiding your eyes.

"O... oppa... y... You know what I mean right?" You asked stuttering, feeling nervous.

"We're in company now, please using formality. I'm your senior here." He said coldy finally met your eyes.

"S... sunbae...?" You surprised at his coldness and tears start to built in your eyes.

"You done talking? I still have few songs to check. I'm leaving first." He said and passing you, walkaway.

You widened your eyes and tears start to flow from your cheeks. Your confession just got ditch in a very bad way. You've gained everything in you to said that you like him, but he just ditch you away like this.

FLASHBACK ENDED

After that incident, you've been busily prepare for your departure for a week. You didn't meet Yoongi ever since, and you also didn't plan to tell him. You don't want to got hurt more.

You will just, leave, and never turn back, especially to him. The feelings of not be able to seeing him for a long period hurt you so much, you can't imagine it, but you have to. It's the best path for you to move on from him.

You stare at his photo again and careless it slowly, "Listen to my story today, secrets that no one knew about, I’ll tell you, I take my words back, I didn't like you, I love you, I love you. I only be able to shout out with a voice that no one can hear." You muttered slowly and smile bitterly while close your eyes let a single drop fall from the corner of your eyes.

"Those countless words that lingered in my mouth, you won't be heard it. I knew I shouldn’t do this as I closed my eyes why do I keep seeing you?? After I telling my feelings to you, but why you still don’t know my heart that longing for you? " You thought in your mind.

Suddenly you heard a call for your plane, so you wipe away your tears, sighing and stand up, grabbing your purse and walk to your destination.

Min Yoongi,
You don’t wanna be my heart. You don’t wanna be my life. I don’t understand that moment, why are you like that to me, did I say something wrong? I thought about it over and over again, but I can't found the reason why. But I do understand something, that you will always be my love.

You never know, but while you walk to your plane, a guy standing there watching your back slowly gone among the people. His expression was hard to tell, there is no emotion on his pale face, but for sure he knew that he just did a big mistake in his life. "Just like you, everyone has their secrets, including me." He whisper as if it could get to you.

Theme Song: Secret by Apink -