She's Kind of a Disaster

31- We'll Talk

The weekend in Portland goes by in a blur. The appointment goes well and I don't have to have any invasive procedure done, which is good. I take an 'abortion pill' at the clinic and they give me another pill that I have to take in 24-48 hours. After I take that pill though, I'm going to start cramping and bleeding so I've decided to wait until I get back to Idaho to take that one.

Introducing Shaw to my sister was weird but he was on his best behavior, I think, so they got along well enough. I made sure that I was always with Shaw so that Brianna wouldn't be able to take me aside and ask me what was going on. I knew that she wouldn't address anything with Shaw there. 

Back in Idaho, Shaw and I get an Uber ride back to campus and we go up to my apartment together. I'm tired from all of the traveling and I have to take this second pill soon. I don't want to wait until tomorrow because I have classes and I don't want to have to miss them if these cramps get too bad.

Bella, Jesse, and Clayton are all sitting in the living room when we walk in, as if waiting for our arrival like it's the most exciting thing in the world.

"So, how'd it go?" Bella asks me from where she's sitting between the two boys.

"It was fine," I say with a shrug. "I just have to take this last pill and then it'll be over. It's basically forcing a miscarriage, so it's going to hurt but it'll officially be over in 24 hours."

"Okay, that's good. How are you feeling now?"

"Tired," I admit with a long sigh. "I'm going to go take this pill and hopefully fall asleep."

"Then why is Shaw here?" Jesse asks, giving Shaw a distasteful glance.

"He feels bad for impregnating me, so he's just here to help out," I answer as if he's not there to speak for himself. I don't want those two to get into an argument right now though, so I think that it's for the best if I stay in between them. "Were you all just sitting here waiting for me to come home?"

"We were worried," Clayton explains. "Just wanted to make sure that you're doing okay, and to see if you need anything from us?"

"I don't want Clay to speak for me, but yeah, I'm just here to see if there's anything that you need," Bella tells me. "But if you just want to take a nap, I'll head out. I've been talking to this guy who plays club lacrosse and he's free tonight. You are totally number one priority, though."

"I'm good. You go have fun with your lacrosse player," I assure her. "Thanks for coming over, Bell. I'll see you tomorrow."

"Okay, sure. I'll see you tomorrow," She decides, glancing over at Shaw. "Nice to see you again, Shaw. I guess. I'm not sure how I feel about you right now. You two can go to hell." She says that last part to Jesse and Clayton before she grabs her purse from the coffee table and heads out of the apartment.

"How was Brianna?" Jesse asks me before I can go back into my room.

"She was fine," I mutter slowly as I go into the kitchen to grab a bottle of water and then Shaw follows me into my bedroom. "I didn't really give her the chance to ask about anything, couldn't ask about Clayton or the breakup. The dog is adorable, Joel was fine. Everything was just fine, Jesse."

"She really wasn't suspicious about you just randomly coming to visit?" Jesse asks me suspiciously.

"Nope, not that I could tell. Now, if you would excuse me, I have a fetus to miscarry," I remind him, finally disappearing into my room, shutting the door to block Jesse and Clayton from me and Shaw.

It looks like Shaw is about to give me some motivational speech, like he thinks that I will need a courage boost to take this pill that should officially make me unpregnant. Before he can get a word out though, I put the pill in my mouth and use the water to swallow it. I don't need a pep talk, I'm ready to get this growing fetus out of my body.