Assume (Solby)

Chapter 5

(Sam POV)

I didn't get home til the next day, I had decided to stay at Kat's.

I walked into the house and it was too quiet. I know it's been quieter ever since Colby left and Elton moved in with Fitz, but I'm still not used to it. It went from six of us to four of us really quickly and it was the weirdest thing.

I walked over to the stairs and headed towards my room. Right when I got up the stairs Corey came out of his room.

"Oh, hey man." He said.

"Hey, is Aaron here?"

"Nah, he went to Target."

"Oh, maybe that's why it's so quiet." I said walking towards my room. Again, looking into Colby's empty one. I guess it is a habit to look in there, kinda hoping that one day I will look in there and see Colby. Though, I doubt that really will ever happen.

I plugged my phone in, then realizing I got a text.

Kat: Get home safe?

Sam: Yeah

Kat: k love you

Sam: love you too

I set it down and sat on my bed.

And now I am bored. Usually I would go ask Corey to play rocket league with me but I'm to lazy to get up. If this was a normal day a year ago, I would've just told Colby to come in here and we would talk about video ideas.

Why the hell is he always popping into my damn mind? It's getting annoying now. Always thinking about him just hurts so why can't I stop? Maybe guilt? I do feel horrible about what I said back then, but I can't go back to fix it. I said sorry so many times with no success so I just stopped trying. Maybe one more try wouldn't hurt? Maybe since it's been a year he is finally over it?

I sit up to grab my phone, going to Colby's contact. But I stop.

Colby: Just leave me alone already, I don't want to be used by you anymore. You aren't my friend anymore.

That text was from almost five months ago but it still hurt to look at. I sighed and dropped my phone back on my desk. What am I thinking? Apologizing? He never said sorry once anyway! And he did say some messed up stuff.

Ah! I can't decide what to do anymore! Colby is always on my mind lately and I want to fix things with us but I can't! Because he won't let me! Because he hates me! And, I'm supposed to hate him. But that's another thing I can't do.

Now I'm just repeating myself 24/7. It's always "I miss Colby but he hates me and I should hate him but I don't" and I'm going crazy! Just like Kat said, It's been a year I need to get over him.

I stood up and walked over to my camera, setting it up. Maybe I should film some Dear Sam things to clear my mind. Filming usually helps.

"What's up guys! Today I am doing more of your requests from the Dear Sam comments!"

Yeah, this should help clear my mind.

-

The video was fun to film. I got Corey to do a few weird things for me and we just had a good time.

"I still have ketchup in my hair, what kind of challenge was that?" Corey said laughing.

"I don't know but it was hilarious." I said sitting down.

"And messy." Corey walked over to the bathroom to get the ketchup out of his hair.

I grabbed my camera and turned it off. I pulled my phone out, scrolling though twitter a bit. My friends tweeted about random things that always made me laugh. Aaron just said something about seeing a dog chasing someone through Target and that is honestly gold. Wish I could've seen that.

"Alright," Corey said walking back towards the kitchen, "I gotta go get ready, me and Devyn are going out tonight."

"Oh, well have fun. I'm probably just gonna go edit this video." I said standing up.

"Nice." Corey said as we both walked towards the stairs.

"Well, I'll see ya later." Corey said walking into his room.

"Yep." I said popping the P.

I walked into my room and put my camera down. Actually, editing sounded pretty boring. I want to go somewhere.

I walked downstairs and put my shoes on, grabbing my car keys. Now to decide on where to go. There really isn't anywhere to go but, a park! Parks are always nice. Usually. Unless there are a bunch of annoying teenagers running around while shouting pretty offensive words. I was only a teenager a few years ago, I would know. But I usually didn't join in that, just watched it and laughed.

I got in and drove to the nearest park. I could probably pretend I'm 9 again and swing on the swings. Or lay in the grass, that's always something nice to do.

I sat in my car for a moment after I parked. It looked so peaceful. Only a few people seemed to be there. I stepped out looking towards the park. I saw somebody over at the park, sitting at the swings. Looks like I'm not the only one who wants to relive childhood memories at a park. They were wearing a hood and swung slowly and not to high.

I walked over and sat on the swing next to them, "It's cool if I sit here right?" I asked the person. They turned to me and my world stopped.