Assume (Solby)

Chapter 9

(Sam POV)

"Sam, where you going?" Corey asked as I ran down the stairs.

"Colby and Brennen's!" I said walking to the door.

"Dude, you have been non-stop hanging with Colby for like the past week." Corey said with a little smile.

It's because he makes me feel happier and I missed him for so long. "Well, we did spend a whole year apart. I miss the guy." I said shrugging and grabbing my keys.

"Whatever, when you get home you gotta help me film a video." Corey said turning in his heel and walking back to the kitchen.

"No problemo, bye!" I called out.

I walked over to my car and hopped in.

So, it's been a week since Colby first came and I can't stop thinking of him and hanging out with him. Does it worry me? Okay, maybe a little. Why would I be wanting to hang out with someone so much if they were just my friend? I like to think it's because I missed him but.. it could be something else. Something more. I don't wanna think about it. Just want to go hang out with Colby and Brennen, and forget everything bad. At least for a moment.

I got to their apartment and stepped out.

"Hey Sam!" Colby said opening the door.

"Hey dude, what's up?" I asked.

"Eh, just being bored." He said letting me in.

There was this feeling I got when I would hang out with him. A bubbly, happy feeling. I was like a middle school girl when I was around him. I don't know why.

"Hey Brennen." I said.

"Hey Samuel." Brennen said. He always called me Samuel.

Then we all slipped into a normal conversation. Just us laughing and talking. It felt nice.

Then the conversation took a hard turn.

"So, when you guys gonna tell people you are friends again?" Brennen asked.

Me and Colby both stared at each other.

"I mean, we haven't talked about that yet." I said.

"Yeah.. we are probably gonna wait a bit longer." Colby said shrugging awkwardly.

"Have you guys even talked about that night?" He asked.

I think that's when it set in. When reality hit me right in then face. When the sinking feeling returned. We hadn't talked about it. We didn't want to talk about it. I didn't want to talk about it.

I kept a calm look. Because usually I don't freak out like this. Why am I freaking out?

Colby kept quiet, his eyes were focused on the ground. I couldn't read his expression, he was just blank.

"Sorry, I hit a soft spot.." Brennen said.

"I-it's cool.." Colby said softly.

Just then my phone began to ring.

"I gotta get this." I said standing up.

It was Kat.

"Hello?"

"Saaaaam hey baby." Kat said.

"Hi." I said, still uncomfortable from the conversation I just came out of.

"Babe you should come over. I miss you."

"I'm at Colby's right now. Um, I'll come over later."

"Ugh, you are always at Colby's. Come over, I'm your girlfriend!" She said groaning.

I thought for a second, she was right, I had been at Colby's a lot. And she is my girlfriend. And I need to see her. Ugh, fine.

"Fine. I'll be over in 15 minutes." I said.

"Yay! I love youuu."

"Love you too." I said hanging up.

I sighed. Cool I'm leaving on a a bad note. Wonderful. Just what I need.

"Uh, sorry guys. Kat wants me to come over to her house. We can uh, hang tomorrow?" Sam asked.

"Shit dude, me and Colby are busy." Brennen said.

I nodded, "Nah that's cool. I'll text you later Colbs." I said heading out.

"Bye!" I heard Colby called behind me.

I closed the door and went for my car.

I tried to make my mood go back up but it stayed low in the pits. I couldn't tell if I was uncomfortable, nervous, sad, mad, or whatever the hell. I just didn't know. I think I felt.. numb.

God, I'm frustrated! And I.. I don't know why.. I think I'm gonna pass out.

I sat in my car, my hands on the wheel but the car not on.

I sighed and started the car. Just gonna go hang out with Kat. Forget what all happened.

Why is this bothering me so much? It's so stupid! I can't stop thinking about it!

-

"Hey babe." Kat said as I walked in.

"Hey." I said.

"What's wrong?" She asked.

"Nothing.." I said.

"Sam." She said sternly.

"I don't know what's wrong." I said.

"You just feel, off?" She asked.

I nodded.

"Well what happened at Colby and Brennen's?" She said sitting next to me and cuddling up.

"Well, Brennen mentioned our fight and it got uncomfortable and that's it. That's why I am so confused on why I feel like this." I sighed.

"You're over thinking it. Let's make you focus on something else." She said turning the tv on.

We watched TV for awhile. I had a late start for today so it was already 8pm now.

I thought. A lot. About a lot.

I thought about me and Colby's fight. It was my fault I responded like I did. I thought about about earlier and why it was awkward. Colby probably still feels a bit uncomfortable around me and that's fine. And.. well.. I might be a bit bisexual. Like, I like girls, I have a girlfriend! That I am realizing I am not really in love with anymore.

I was suddenly overwhelmed by anxiety looking down at Kat as she slept on me. I need.. I need to go.

I moved her off of me without waking her up. I grabbed my keys and left.

I feel like everything is falling apart again.