Heaven Can Wait

Chapter 1 Part 2

Olyviah

Judy moved out of the way making room for me to enter Dr. Browns office. "Go on he's ready to see you it's nothing bad I promise." She reassured me. My feet lead me over the threshold entering his domain. At first I was hesitant to go inside but I figured it shouldn't be that bad right?

He sat at his overly sized desk with paperwork scattered all over completely covering the cherry wood that was once a smooth visible shiny surface.

When I was within a distance between his desk and from the door I stopped walking and stood in the middle of the floor. Dr. Brown was busy writing on a few documents to acknowledge my presence.

"You can take a seat I'll be right with you." He said not taking his eyes off of the paper in front of him as he continued to write words legibly on the lines. I didn't say anything but sat in the seat that was adjacent to his desk. I took in every detail of his office he had famous paintings and a few quotes. One quote in particular caught my eye "Do not go where the path may lead you, go instead where there is no path and leave a trail."

I had to get the motivation from somewhere in order to keep me on the path to my dreams. Its been on hold for a while since the incident but that didn't stop me from trying to move closer to it. I mean it would have been what he wanted anyway. But I didn't expect everything to happen like this.

Dr. Brown shuffled the papers on his desk staking them neatly in a pile in the corner of his desk then got up out of his chair. He walked over to where I was sitting on the brown leather sofa and pulled up a chair on the side. I didn't look him in the eyes when he sat down staring in my direction. My gaze fell upon random objects disbursed around the office. It was awkward for me to look anyone in the face let alone in the eye sometimes. I didn't want them barring into my soul or yet trying to read me. I wasn't sure about who I was myself at times so I didn't want anybody else attempting to figure out what's going on with me.

"You can make yourself comfortable." He grabbed his mini tap recorder along with a notepad and pen. I laid back on the cold leather that felt heavenly against my skin. The room was silent with the exception of his pen gliding across the pad.

"What's on your mind?" Only if he knew what I'm thinking and what's going on in this brain of mine. I don't think he really wants to know the answer to that question. He continuing to dig somewhere he needs to leave alone. I'm fine leaving these thoughts tucked away that slowly decades my sanity.

A sigh escaped my lips as I stared up at the ceiling tugging at the hem of my gown. This was the list of questions he ask me every time I come in for our weekly session where he wants to see how I'm doing and maybe hope I will be more open to him than our last session.

"I can't help you if you don't talk to me." I could sense a little annoyance mixed with sympathy etched in his tone. It's not my fault I don't have the desire to speak to anyone. I blame them for everything that's going wrong in my life. My trust for people went south since that day I lost a part of me. The only thing I really had left for it to be taken away just like that.

"How come you can talk to August but you can't talk to me?" I gave him a blank stare blinking multiple times before diverting my vision to my hands that were crossed and sat on top of my stomach.

We go through this during every session. I never say a word and he sits there writing on that little pad of his. Dr. Brown checking in on me serves no purpose and he is wasting his time plus breath trying to crack me open but I'm not budging.

Hopefully he gets the message that I don't want to speak to him nor the nurses. They should use there time on all the other patients. I'm not worth the attention. Little does he know August is talking to me and I never respond so actually he pretty much talking to himself half of the time.

"Is there is anything you want to share at all?" Again I kept quiet.He sighed removing his glasses from his face pressing both thumbs against his eyelids then positioned them back on his face. "Well today's session is over I will see you next week the same time." I swung my legs over the edge of the couch and stood to my feet heading towards the exit.

I'm glad that this was over because I didn't know how much longer I could be take being asked the same exact questions. Maybe if I actually answered them he wouldn't want to schedule these weekly meetings, which is starting to get redundant.

"Hey Olyviah. Please behave and make sure you eating your food remember I have eyes every where." He said a smirk dancing its way into the corner of his mouth. Since he believes I'm talking to August he going to keep an eye out on the both of us. I didn't want him to go down with me if something was to happen.

If I got August into more trouble then he would have something added to his file. Lets see if I can keep this up. How long will it all last though?

I walked outside of his office Judy was waiting to take me back to my room until dinner. It feels like I'm confined to this place how much security and coded doors created to keep the patients from roaming the facility. There's no freedom here we just transition between three places our room, the cafeteria, and Dr. Browns office occasionally. Other than that we're caged in a small room.

We stopped in front of my door and Judy slid her id and the door beeped twice unlocking and opened. I stepped inside my room and saw a second bed neatly made. My eyebrows furrowed in confusion and I turned around to see a girl standing beside Judy.

The baggy clothes she wore did nothing to hide her curvy frame. Her caramel colored skin looked flawless. She had long black locks that cascaded down her back as her brown eyes locked with mine. We engaged in a stare down before I turned around walked to my bed and laid down making sure to turn my back towards them.

"She's not really a talker." Judy whispered but l still was able to hear what she said.

I'm not even going to acknowledge the presence of another body in the room. If she going to stay here I'm going to keep to myself and I'd rather she'd do the same.

Nicolé

I shouldn't be here is what I kept telling myself. They claimed that my condition was getting worse and they were running out of options. The medication my body became immuned to the doses. Any given time I can lose control of my actions and not be accountable.

I've lost friends due to my unexplainable change in behavior. People feared me at times because they wasn't aware of the mood I was in. My state of mind wasn't always right. Now it all boiled down to me being stuck here for god knows how long.

I stood beside the nurse who seemed nicer than the one who handled my paper work and took it to Dr. Brown. She said I wouldn't be able to see him until I was scheduled for my one on one session he has with the patients.

So she just checked me in and had me waiting for the other nurse to escort me to the room. They never told me that I would be living with a roommate. How I don't know if she's crazy and might try to do something to me in my sleep?

Once we reached the room she left me with a different nurse who was already bringing back the patient to her room. I didn't know her name yet because no one told me. Judging her body language observing from behind she noticed something was off which caused her to turn around facing us.

We both participated in a immense stare down before she decided to get in her bed. Judy informed me she wasn't much of a talker which was good because I don't think I was going to talk to her anyway.

First thing that came to mind she's crazy just like I predicted. I'm going to stay my distance and hopefully she keeps hers.

I walked over to my bed slipping off my laceless sneakers and sat propped up on the bed with my back against the wall. I'm going to sleep like this for a couple of days until I get use to being around her. Can't trust somebody who's admitted into a insane asylum too well.

My eyes became heavy and I let the beads of rain water hitting the small square window put me to sleep.