Heaven Can Wait

Chapter 9 Part 2

Vashtie

I looked in the rearview mirror at a sleeping Carson. I'm glad she finally took a nap after all the crying she did after we left Walmart. Or should I say ran out? That was a part of my past I was not prepared to face; not yet.

Pulling in the driveway I parked the car then took the keys out of the ignition. Before getting out I looked in the mirror. The horror sight of my cheeks smudged in mascara. Reaching in the glove compartment I grabbed the travel size pack of baby wipes.

When I was done cleaning up the disaster on my face I took a deep breath getting out of the car. Opening the back door I unfastened Carson from her car seat resting her head on my shoulder. She was kind of heavy but I was thankful the house wasn't far from the driveway. Walking up the staircase I rung the doorbell.

"You're heavy mamas." I grumbled trying to adjust her weight on both arms her light snores filling my ears. The door swung open I was greeted with a smile from my best friend slowly turning into a frown. I'm sure she noticed the distress look on my face. Without me asking she grabbed Carson taking her to the guest bedroom.

Taking off my purse and shoes I went straight to the mini bar that occupied the space between the dining room and kitchen. I poured myself a Malibu Breeze then mixed up one of my special drinks she loves. After I perfected her drink always with a little extra the way she like it I sat both of them on the counter.

I heard the shuffling of footsteps on the hardwood floors. Trying to keep myself together I knew it was only a matter of seconds I was near my breaking point. Soon she got close enough the tears flowed down my face like currents. I couldn't hold it in any longer.

"Aww come here." She embraced me in a warm hug rubbing my back in small circles. We stood here for at least five minutes when I decided to pull myself together. If it was one thing I knew about my best friend she hated to see me cry and vice versa. I'm sure that there are a series of questions she have waiting for me to answer. "Come talk to me." She intertwined our fingers walking to the balcony. "Now what's going on? Spill the tea I want everything not just minor details." The expression on her face was serious.

"I-I saw Jermaine at Walmart."

"He didn't touch you or Carson did he?" I shook my head no. How quick her entire demeanor changed I knew she would probably go looking for him.

"It happened so fast I never gave Jermaine a chance to speak." She kissed her teeth.

"After what he did to you he lucky to have even seen your face again. Better yet to be only a few feet away from you breathing the same air. " Her leg shook violently as the words rolled bitterly off her tongue. It was true as harsh as it might sound.

"I ran out of the store not looking back. The way he called my name." I said the last part the tears continued to fall freely. "My mind and legs were telling me to run but my heart was not in synced."

"Vashtie it's normal for you not to be over Jermaine yet. You two have unfinished chemistry together. The both of ya'll have not received the closer you need to move on. There's still a plain open field full of history and a lot of other things. Besides the story you shared I know how much he made you happy when you both first met back in college."

"From the outside looking in on your relationship everything seemed fine. On the inside I know it's not all peaches and cream. What appears to be sweet is not always sugar coated. Jermaine has another side I think is better to be left alone including him. I'm sorry to say but the man don't deserve you nor to be around Carson." I sighed taking a sip of my drink a burning sensation from the rum tingled at the back of my throat with the cool refreshing after taste of sweet pineapple.