Nalu One Shots

Never...Never Again

Guilds and wizards.

*Natsu's POV*

     "I love you Luce." I grabbed her, hoping she wouldn't push me away. "N-Natsu...I...I love you too." I smiled and pressed my lips against hers.

     My life wouldn't be so miserable now.

     Or maybe I spoke too soon.

     She kissed back but pulled away, she stepped back and looked at me, "N-Natsu this is weird."

What?

"I...I'm sorr-"

"Stop." I didn't let her continue, "stop! Just stop! I'm sick of it! You always play with my feelings! You lead me on, so I decided to go for it! I told you I loved you and kissed you!! You respond and bring my hopes up but then you just stop and apologize?! YOU DON'T GET TO DO THAT!...I'm sick of it.........I won't ever let you play with my feelings. Never...Never again." I jumped out of the window, I didn't want her to see me cry. I may have exploded on her, but I still have my pride. Why? Why did this have to happen to me? I gave Lucy hints and she's reacted to them. I gave it my all, how could she say she loves me back when she pushes me away? Who would be so cruel?

     I didn't know where to go, I ran into the guild and looked around. Gray spotted me first, he looked at me worriedly, oh right, I was crying. I ran back out, I knew he was going to come and ask what happened. A few seconds later, he came out. "Natsu what happened?"

     I told him everything, how Lucy led me on, how she backed off suddenly and pushed me away, how my hopes crushed me.

     Gray sighed, "I don't know what she was thinking, maybe she thought it was too sudden? I'm sure she was scared that she didn't want to jeopardize your relationship." I shook my head, "but why? Why would she be so scared? It's me, I would do anything for her." Gray looked up at the sky, "maybe things happen for a reason." I looked at him, what does he mean? Lucy and I weren't supposed to be together? I was wrong?

     "Maybe being friends is the best relationship you could have."

     Gray smiled at me sympathetically, then walked back into the guild. Maybe he was right. Was an intimate relationship with Lucy not right? Maybe it would worsen things. I ruffled my hair and stood up. Okay. Lucy and I will only be friends.

     The second time today, I climbed into Lucy's window. She was laying in her bed. "Luce?" She jumped holding her heart, I guess I always scare here when she doesn't hear me. "N-Natsu!...Natsu...I-" I forced a smile, "hey I get it. Maybe you're right. We should just stay friends. Nothing more, and definitely nothing less. I agree. What good will come of us being together?" Every word I said pained my heart even more.

     But I have to keep smiling.

     "Natsu n-" I shook my head, she stopped and looked at me, "I'll be waiting outside. Get ready, let's go to the guild." I jumped back out and waited for her.

She came out, and we started to walk. She kept getting closer to me so I kept moving away. What is she doing? We were by the river's edge, ohhhhhh, she wants to walk on the ledge like she always does! I grabbed her and we switched, she looked at me questionably, "you wanted to walk in the ledge right?" She looked at me confused but agreed anyway.

The river ended, but we still had a way to go until the guild. She jumped off and walked side by side with me. Suddenly I felt her arm wrap around mine. She came nearer and smiled. It hurt for her to do this. I pulled my arm away and put them behind my head. I looked at the sky, "let's go on a mission today." Lucy didn't reply. I looked down at her, she was playing with her hands while looking at the floor. "Lucy?" She jolted up, "y-yea sure!...Let's leave later though."

We entered the guild, I sat down in one of the booths, Lucy sat down beside me. Huh? She usually sits across me. Why was she acting so strange?

Then it hit me.

This was her way of making up with me for earlier. It stung to know she would go this far, to use my personal feelings to her advantage.

She leaned her head on my shoulder and closed her eyes. It made my heart flutter, but immediately it felt like someone stabbed my heart. I won't let her hurt me, never...never again. I got up and walked to the bar. She looked at me questionably, but followed. I sat down and Mira brought me water, then she gave Lucy water. Lucy sat down and quietly drank her water. We sat there in silence, neither ready for what comes next.

Why? Why did it end up this way? Just this morning I was excited, ready to confess my feelings to her. I was ready for both acceptance and denial. But I wasn't ready for my feelings to be used like this. It would've hurt less if she told me straightforward. When will the pain stop?

"Natsu!"

I whirled my head around from the sudden outburst. Lisanna. She was sitting on the other side of me. "Are you okay? I've been trying to talk to you for a while now." I shook my head, "yea. Just thinking." My mind wouldn't leave the topic alone, I couldn't stop thinking about Lucy. Lisanna smiled and intertwined our arms. She leaned her head on my shoulder, "well I always have to worry about my best friend!" I nonchalantly hummed in response, then finished my water. I could care less what she says or does. What else could possibly hurt me now?

But I have a habit of speaking too soon.

Lucy was looking at us. She looked at Lisanna, at her head leaning on my shoulder, at our arms intertwined, then she looked at me, then at my eyes.

I saw it. I saw all the hurt, all the pain that was built up inside her. I saw the tears desperately trying to escape. I saw all the feelings that were crying to escape.

     On instict I pulled myself away from Lisanna and hugged Lucy. I put her head on my chest and told her it was okay. She grabbed my arm and pulled me out of the guild. "Natsu." I hummed in response, waiting for her to continue. "Please hear me out about what happened earlier today. You interrupt me every time I try to explain. Just listen to me." I wasn't sure if I wanted to listen. It hurts enough, but I don't want to see her cry, "ok. I'll listen."

"I said I love you too, and I wasn't lying. I really do Natsu. I was happy when you confessed. You kissed me and I kissed back. I pulled away because I was scared. I was afraid that it wouldn't work out and our relationship would end. I didn't want to lose you."

     "...then why did you apologize?"

     "Because Natsu. Because I wasn't scared anymore. I realized that you would never intentionally hurt me. You just wouldn't. I asked myself why I was so scared? And I couldn't find a reason. So," she grabbed my hand and looked at, "be with me. Please."

     Lucy loved me.

     She was just scared.

     I sighed and looked at her, then smiled. I pulled her close and hugged her. I'm scared too. I don't know what is ahead of us. But I know we can face it. We won't be apart. Never...never again.

Ok I'm sorry. I was trying to write a new chapter and ended up with this. I could've made it better, I hope it's acceptable. ;-;