Dangerous II {Jungkook} AU

Why would you let me hurt like this?

I turned and gave Jungkook a death glare. He gave me a soft smile, which only angered me even more.

"You're worst than him" I spat at him. The tears were still streaming down my face, and my vision was blurred by tears.

"I had to keep it a secret, I had no choice" Jungkook defended harshly, sitting up from his chair. I started walking towards him with harsh steps.

"You had a choice! And you choose to hurt me, in the worst way possible!" I yelled in his face.

He sighed and tugged at his hands hair.

"Did you know what I had been doing for the last two years? Did you know how broken I was?" I asked in a shaky voice.

"Yes" be simply answered angering me even more.

"Why would you let me hurt like this?!" I asked yelling at him while he stood completely still with blank eyes. And god, how that reminded me of how much I hated that look. The blank face these people had learned to master.

"Celina i was so proud of you. You got into university, you had gotten a job. You were doing so well, I thought you were moving on" he explained. I didn't look at.

"Hoseok told me everything, also about how hurt you were" he said trying to reach for my hand but I crossed my arms over my chest. avoiding his touch, that I had been longing for, for the past years.

"How were you able to keep away from me, when you knew I was broken?" I asked looking at my feet.

"I learned to convince myself I didn't love you anymore" his words stung my heart. I looked at him shocked by his words. Thousands things I wanted to say rushed trough my head. I was a complete mess. Just as I thought the world had gotten back to perfection it was torn apart just as fast. I had lost all sense of reality as that showed in my actions. I slapped Jungkook harshly over the cheek, his head quickly turning left.

A part of me wanted to apologize but I knew he deserved it. How could a person ever do that. I never tried stop loving him. The feeling of love was the only thing I had left, and now even that was gone.

"Celina-"

"No, Just stop. Your words are hurting me" I said truthfully in low voice now trying to process everything.

I looked at Jungkook, he looked as if he finally realized what he had done. He opened his mouth to talk but nothing came out.

I turned on my heel and walked towards the bedroom, a few meters away from where we stood. I tried my best to keep the sobs from escaping my lips. I didn't even get a look at the bedroom when I walked in. I slammed the door shut and locket it before falling down on the floor. I sobbed and yelled in hands, just hoping someone would wake me up from this nightmare I was living in.

Jungkook didn't love me anymore? All I've thought about for the last two years were him, and he had tried to avoid the thoughts about me. I had lost the Jungkook I knew, to this knew careless man who only wanted to hurt the people around him. I had no one left. Hoseok was a liar, So was the other boys. Maybe V was right all along, I had fallen I love with the wrong person. And even my dad was right, I knew nothing about love, because I had never really felt it.

Soft knocks came from the door and my head snapped up.

"Celina your getting this all wrong" Jungkook's voice said softly. I didn't answer, what could I have gotten wrong? It was all obvious.

"Please. I just need to talk to you, without us yelling at each other. Nothing will get better by doing that" he said and I sobbed even louder by the sound of his voice. I had missed it so much and now I hated the sound of it.

I moved towards the door, sitting by it with my back against the door.

"I'm going to sit outside this door until you decide to come out Celina" he explained.

If you had told me a month ago I would avoid Jungkook with a door in between us I would have laughed and wished it was true. Right now I wanted to go back home and forget that Jungkook was alive. Life was horrible without him, but the truth was even more horrible.

"We have nothing else to do today, so I have plenty of time to wait for you. I think I owe you that" he joked. I noticed in his voice that it sounded like he had been crying as well. I smiled to myself leaning my head down to my knees, wrapping my arms around my knees as well.

I don't know why I could never get over Jungkook, it was probably because I knew somewhere deep down something wasn't right about his death. Maybe the universe didn't let me get over him because it knew this all would happen. Whatever reason this all was happening to me I'm not sure how I will be able to get trough it. I don't have anyone to tell me it will all be ok. No one. Everyone is dead or liars, how I'm supposed to live a life like this? Please universe tell me. Please someone help me.

A/N
I'm sorry this book is so sad, I promise it will get better soon. Maybe. I know my chapters have been very short lately, I promise to make it up to you soon. I just haven't had the time.
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