Both me and Jungkook stumbled into the his house soaking wet. The other boys had already arrived since they both left Bugsy's house before us and didn't have a meltdown in the middle of the road. To be honest I didn't really notice they had helped Jungkook getting into the house, I only saw them as I sat down in Jungkooks car as we drove off.
I kicked of my shoes and jogged towards the stairs to go up to our room to get some new clothes. I stopped with one foot on the first step of the stairs. I looked towards the living room where all the boys stood now standing up with their eyes on me. My eyes were glued to Hoseoks who was looking at me with regret all over his face. I decided I wanted to pick a fight with him today since one with Jungkook wasn't enough. I walked with harsh steps into the living room.
"You asshole" I said harshly with my finger pointed right at Hoseok. I stopped only centimeters away from him with anger blurring my sense of reality.
"Celina I need to explain why I've made the decisions I've made" he started and I already felt offended.
"No, I don't want to hear any more of your shit" I started looking right into his dark brown eyes.
"I trusted you, you were all I had, You were my best friend, and you've ruined that" I said placing my hands on his chest and pushing him. He stumbled backwards but stopped when his legs meet the sofa.
"Celina-" he tried getting an excuse in.
"Please. There is no excuse to what you've lied about and what you've done the last weeks, so just shut up for once" I spat at him turning away seeing Jungkook standing a few meters away with his arms crossed over his chest looking at me with a sad expression on his face.
"It's all Jungkooks fault, and you know that" Hoseok suddenly yelled behind me. I stopped and turned towards him once again.
"Jungkook did some bad things, but at least he's realized it and tries to own up to it, You only blame your faults on others" I said in a shaky voice now more sad than angry. Hoseok looked at me and I could see his heart break. I wanted to run up to him and hug him but instead I turned on my heel and walked towards the stairs again.
As I passed Jungkook he grabbed my arm and pulled me into his chest for a tight hug. The hug surprised me but it was definitely what I needed right now and Jungkook knew that. A few tears rolled down my cheeks again. This day had been very emotional, we all had faced the long awaited truth and maybe we could all finally do something about our problems and not run from them.
"It's going to be alright" he said in a low voice with his arms tightly wrapped around me. My heart felt a sense of relief with his words. No one had told me that in a long time and I didn't realize how much I wanted someone to tell me just that.
His arms loosened and I pulled away and gave him a small smile before continuing towards the stairs. I jogged up the stairs feeling all the eyes from the boys on me making my heart sting. I wanted to say something to them, tell them I didn't want it to be like this, but I just couldn't get the courage to.
I walked into the bedroom and walked to the closet full of the clothes I had missed. I pulled out a hoodie and some black cotton shorts. I tugged the wet clothing off my body and hung them over the closet door to dry. I pulled the dry cotton shorts up my legs and continued to pull the warm dry hoodie over my head. I walked over to the bed and sat down on the end of it and let out a loud sigh.
My head was tired of all the thoughts, words and feelings that had been spinning around all these days. Some of those thoughts and words had come out to the world to hear but still I felt full of feelings I couldn't express, and it was draining me. I didn't want me and Jungkook to be so distant. I didn't want it to be tense between be and Hoseok, I wanted us to be close like we used to be and I just wanted to find a place that felt like home. I wanted to live there with Jungkook in peace.
A soft knock came from the door and I moved my eyes in the direction it came from.
"Yes?" I said trying to see who it was from the small crack in the door. The door opened slowly and Tae came into view with a cute smile on his face. I had missed that smile more than I thought.
"I'm just coming check in on you" he said closing the door behind him softly and walking towards me. I looked at him with thoughts filling my head.
"Been rough the last days" he said not asking but knowing it had been just that, rough.
"Yes" I said quietly looking down at the bed sheets. Tae sat down besides me.
"If I could fix it all I would, we all would" he started and I looked at him wanting him to stop. I couldn't take anymore apologies, I didn't even know who was the one who should be apologizing anymore.
"We've all done some fucked up things, but doesn't that mean we all would go very far to save each other's asses?" He slightly joked making me let out a small laugh.
"I guess so" I laughed looking at him.
"What should I do?" I asked feeling like that was the question I needed an answer to the most. It was probably the question that had been bothering my mind the most.
"Celina I don't know" he said making my body fill with disappointment.
"I think you should stop looking for others to decide that for you. You need to follow your heart and know yourself what's right for you" he said making me nervous. What if my heart wanted something else than my mind. What if my heart didn't want what I thought was the best for me?
"What does your heart say?" Tae asked looking at me with hopeful eyes. I shook my head looking down at my hands. I think I finally knew.
"I want to forgive Jungkook for his wrong doings and live my life with him" I started with my eyes looking down at my hands, I was scared Tae would think my heart was saying something wrong.
"I don't want to fight with Hoseok anymore. I want us to be friends like before" I continued feeling a lump in my throat and my voice started to shake.
"And I want us two to get a new chance at a friendship" I said finally looking up at Tae who quickly got a smile on his face.
"That sounds like three things that can be achieved" he said confidently making me feel confident about all of this as well.
A/N
Wasn't that cute? I've missed Tae, thought it would be nice to get his cute old self back 😄👌🏻 (remember to vote!)
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