Dear readers,
I've been a bunch of yaoi manga tonight, and my mind just naturally drifted onto the topic of my sexual orientation.
Thoughts like, "He's sooo cute! I want to find a guy like that! I'd just want to... I'd just want to torture him!"
There are actually two topics that this brought up in my mind.
First, what I've alreay mentioned, my sexual orientation. I always tell people I'm bisexual, or pansexual, though I find saying I'm pansexual can be troublesome because few people actually know what that means. Basically it means that gender and gender identity are of no issue.
In reality though, so far my preference is for males. I've never actually had feelings of emotional attraction for a woman. Just physical.
Maybe the word "pansexual" is actually the perfect way to describe it. It's possible that I'm Heteromantic, but Pansexual. I could be physically attracted to all sorts of genders and gender identities. I could definitely find it in me to fuck a guy with a vagina or boobs or a woman with a penis. Or a woman who dresses like a man or a man who dresses like a woman.
I just haven't so far, I guess.
Not that there are a whole lot of candidates where I live.
And maybe that's just it.
There aren't actually all that many girls I even like as friends at my school, and even those annoy the shit out of me sometimes.
So maybe I'm Panromantic AND Pansexual.
Ah well, maybe I'll find out when I go to Uni.
I'll be stayin' in an all girls' dorm XP
You get where I'm going here, right? I hope there are lots of lesbians and bisexual women.
I've had many unrealistic harem & reverse harem & orgy fantasies while thinking of finally going to university.
Ahhhh just thinking of them is making me drool! XS
Now... on to the other topic that came to mind - my sadistic nature.
Every time there's an especially cute man in a manga, my mind automatically thinks of pushing them down and tying them up. Hmmmm...
Oh, and by cute, I mean their personality, not their looks. I usually go for strong, manly characters. Yakuza types are some of my favorites in mangas. With those beautiful scars!
Just the thought of topping a strong, capable man is extremely tantalizing. Mmmmmmmmm... And tying them up... And... other things... The idea of tearing apart a man's pride is extremely appealing to me.
I really hope I can someday find someone both manly and masochistic... That would probably be my ideal.
It's probably wishful thinking, though.
Uvidimsya!
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