Waving Through A Window

I'm So Tired

I'm so tired of so many things

I'm so tired of not understanding how I feel
I'm so tired of being confused about my emotions

I'm so tired of my heart hurting
I'm so tired of wanting to cry
I'm so tired of jumping at every loud noise
I'm so tired of my heart racing in my chest

I'm so tired of having endless questions that I can't answer
I'm so tired of having my parents hovering over me like I'm 7, not 17
I'm so tired of wanting a boyfriend and not wanting a boyfriend at the same time
I'm so tired of late nights where I question everything

I'm so tired of being hated on for what I love
I'm so tired for feeling like an outcast because I don't like what normal teens do
I'm so tired for trying to hide what I enjoy in fear of being judged

I'm so tired of worrying about everything
I'm so tired of feeling the need to limit myself

I'm so tired of people trying to help me when they don't know what they're doing
I'm so tired of not being able to help others
I'm so tired of feeling like I'm lazy when I'm just trying to get some free time to take care of myself
I'm so tired of not being helpful

I'm so tired of feeling like I'm a bother to everyone
I'm so tired of apologizing
I'm so tired of having no energy and motivation
I'm so tired of feeling bad when I'm not always productive

I'm so tired of people not having the good set of friends that they need
I'm so tired of constantly feeling that I have to be there for everyone yet not allowing anyone to be there for me

I'm so tired of feeling embarrassed or dumb
I'm so tired of not being good enough
I'm so tired of feeling like I don't deserve anything

I'm so tired of having dreams that leave me feeling unrested in the morning

I'm so tired of so many more things
In such a case where this list would never end
I'm so tired of everything...