Hitting All The Right Notes (SHAWN MENDES)

Chapter 19- Fist Fights and Broken Hearts

(A/N) Just to let you guys know, I use a lot of strong language in this chapter so sorry! If you don't want to read them than just skip the word but this is a important chapter. Sorry!

**SHAWN'S POV**

Ding! Ding! Ding! Ding!

I moan and roll over to my side. My phone has been going off all night. I'm close to chucking it out the window. I looked over at my phone. The notifications were all from twitter. I scroll through them in my lock screen. Everyone's tagging me in this tweet about Alyssa. I clicked my phone to see what the commotion was.

My phone brought me to twitter. The tweet took forever to load. When it finally did, a picture came up. The caption was: "LOYAL GIRLFRIEND HUH?" I clicked on the picture.

My muscles contracted. I felt my stomach drop and my heart ache. My blood ran cold. I could feel my heart shatter into a million little pieces. Like a drop kick to the throat, I couldn't breathe. I began to hyperventilate. I was having a panic attack.

"No..." I whispered. Everything has been a lie. One big, huge, fucking lie. Jack and Alyssa. Alyssa and Jack. Either way you put it, the pain that followed was unbearable. I couldn't control myself. The tears strolled down my face, but I could care less. I have lost the most important person in my life. I trusted her. I trusted Jack. The more I thought about it, the angrier I grew. "Those cheating motherfuckers!" I screamed.

With a water fountain of tears, I screamed. I shoved my face into the hotel pillow and punched the mattress. Shear anger and sadness. That wasn't an emotion anymore. It was me. I gasped for air. I couldn't catch any oxygen. I ran into the bathroom and splashed my face with water until I stopped crying.

After my last splash to the face, I Iooked at my reflection on the mirror. When those eyes met mine, they dilated. I was ready to kill something. I've never been this angry before. I was scaring myself.

I took a big breath of air and walked over to the door of the common room. I was going to walk in there... until I heard Jacks voice.

"Damn! That blonde was so good man! Shawn would've loved her." He finished laughing.

Anger. That's what the Hulk needs to get his super strength. Me? I'm the same exact way. I get this adrenalin rush that lets me do anything... To anyone.

I kicked open the door, making the doorknob snap off. Everyone in the room froze. Cam, Taylor, Carter, Johnson, Nash, Aaron, Matt... And Gilinsky. He was sitting on the couch.

"I DID LOVE HER YOU FUCKING PIECE OF SHIT!" I screamed. I sprinted over to him before he could move. I pushed him off the couch. He landed on the floor with a loud thud. He might be older and bigger than me, but I have something he doesn't. Rage.

I had no control over my limbs anymore. This wasn't me. This wasn't Shawn Mendes. This, this was a monster.

Jack was stuttering. He was in shock. "What? Shawn? What are-" that's all he got out,

before I punched him in the face.

My fist made contact with his nose. It hurt my hand but it wasn't nearly as painful as my heart. I wanted to let him know what he did to me. I trusted him.

I looked down at this mess of a boy. Blood flowed from his nose, streaming down his face. It made me feel good. I didn't want it to... but it did. Seeing him lay there, in tears, screaming in pain, made it so pleasing to give him another blow. I wiped my tears, and pulled my arm back. I clenched my bloody fist in the air.

"SHAWN! NO!" Nash said before grabbing me. He wrestled me off Jack. Half of the guys went to me, while the others went to Jack, who was delusional. Cam and Nash took my arms and put them behind my back. I grunted and gritted my teeth together in fury.