Everyday was just the same as before going to school,coming home taking a short nap,getting ready for work.I know I always told myself I would get a job till I was done with school but what else was gonna keep me from crying every night thinking if the worst night of my life,I always hated crying,crying for me was just a weak emotion because I always knew guys didn't like to cry they wanted to be strong but it's so rare to see a guy cry but when it's not then you if he cries he lost someone important in his life it he's afraid to lose someone that he loves more than himself,because I knew when I first lost you I wanted to go with you and when I was 10 I began to cut also thinking that suicide was the answer to everything I just wanted to end my life,cuts after cuts wearing long sleeve shirts,and no one ever knew about the cuts,or thinking of suicide till one day were a wrote a letter to my mother,sisters saying things I never wanted to say ever again in my life and when everyone was gone I took a knife to my room I looked out the window and I stood there looking at the knife I put it to my chest as I was gonna plunge it through my broken heart but luckily my cousin Alicia showed up and stopped me from doing something I didn't want to do and everyday I thank God that she saved my life because if it wasn't for her I wouldn't be here right now breathing,and so ever since that day I didn't want to go back to that dark moment and so everytime I feel like I'm going back I just call or go to the one person who stopped me from ending my life.
Hey guys so if you guys are reading this and you ever went through a state like this or going through it just remember suicide is never the answer because it will hurt your loved ones if you end your life you may think no body cares or think it will set you free well it won't because your pain will go to someone you love so just remember you are worth it no matter what people tell you cuz you can get through it and that is a fact maybe all you need is a close family member like I did and do because I know she is always there for me.
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