My exhausting Life!

The Old Me

Another poem, not really a rhyming one, just nicely placed I guess? haha-

I hope it comes out right, I tried to make it a bit fancy haha-

The old me was happier

I used to smile just because I was happy,

Now I smile to hide my pain

I know being nice is considered weak

Since I get taken advantage of now...

I don't want to be used...

The old me was confident

I'm trying to be more independent,

But it's hard, I don't have any real friends here anymore,

And if I do, it's that want to use me,

Or they pity me...

I don't want to be pitied...

The old me was animated

I used to be so lively, 

Energetic, friendly, open about my feelings

I've become isolated on an island, in the ocean

loneliness and depression freeze the waves...

I don't want to be static...

The old me was young

I wasn't the smartest back then

I shouldn't have done what I did

But I can't go back and fix it

Without messing something else up, too...

I don't want to be a mistake...

The old me was useful

Hate to admit it, but I'm useless now

All I did was burn bridges

All I did was care about myself

All I did was cause pain...

I don't want to cause pain...

I want to be the old me

I want to be happier                                                             I don't want to be used

I want to be confident                                                         I don't want to be pitied

I want to be animated                                                         I don't want to be static

I want to be young                                                                I don't want to be a mistake

I want to be useful                                                                I don't want to cause pain

I want to get help                                                                  I don't deserve it

I need to get help                                                                  I don't deserve it

I want to be these things                                                   I don't deserve it

I need to be these things                                                    I don't deserve it                

I don't deserve it...

Haha yep that's it...