My exhausting Life!

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I-I don't know if you guys know what having depression is like...

I'm gonna try to explain my version of it, since it's probably different for a lot of people

I-It's like having weights tied to your body, dragging you down,and you can't take them off.

Like... like being trapped in a prison without bars, kept in by your numbness, and outside there's happiness.

I want to curl up in a corner and cry, even though I know it wont help

Like being surrounded by people who used to make you happy, but now you can't feel anything

I want to feel

I want to feel something different

something other than numbness, regret, guilt, sadness...

I want to be happy again but I know I can't be...

Everyone,

Especially Balloon,

I'm sorry I'm hurting you

I'm sorry you worry about me

I'm sorry you have to deal with me

I'm sorry I messed up badly

I'm sorry I can't be saved

I'm sorry I have to leave you guys like this-

I'll do better next time...

If there is a next time...

  I love you. 

four days...