Torn ~ m.e

Chapter 14

Great. He loves me. Just what I needed. Hasn't he hurt me enough? He even admitted it himself. And at this moment in time he chooses to tell me. I've got this thing with Hayes, I really like Taylor and I'm finding myself falling for him again. Now he chooses to tell me that he loves me? He's dating my best friend, I would never to that to her, it would break her heart. But she didn't care about that when she did it to me. No, that would make my just as bad as her.

"So have you told Amy?"
"Amy? Why would I tell her?"
"She's your girlfriend?"
"What?! No!"
"So she's not your girlfriend?"
"Oh no she is"
"Then why wouldn't you tell her?"
"Why would i tell my girlfriend that I'm in love with my ex girlfriend who also happens to be her best friend?" He seems shocked at my question
"You really need to think before you talk" I spit and turn to walk away again
"Wait Sky, I'm sorry"
"Save it, I'm tired of hearing those words coming from your mouth"
"Sky, don't be like this"
"What is it with everyone telling me not to be like this. This is who I am, if you don't like it then you know where you can go"
"I'm sorry Sky, I didn't mean it like that"
"No Matt. You did. Sorry implies that you're never going to do it again, but time and time again you are a complete and utter jackass to me. What did I do to deserve it? Seriously, what did I do wrong? because I've been mentally beating myself up trying to think of what I could have possibly done to make you hate me so much and to make you feel like you have to make my life shit. So what did I do?"
"You stole every boy in that house's hearts"
"That makes no sense"
"Really? Think about it Sky. Those boys love you. Not just because you're their friend, because they fancy you Sky"
"What are you talking about?"
"Haven't you noticed the way they are with you?"
"They're like that with everyone. Like you said, they're paid to be nice"
"Exactly. They're not being paid now are they?" I'm starting to think he could be right "Think about it. They wouldn't be here if they didn't care about you, they wouldn't travel from all different parts of the country just to see you on your birthday would they?"
"I guess"
"That's why I hurt you. Once I had you, I got cocky and wreckless, I didn't realise how much you truly meant to me. Now I've had some time to think about it- and I have, I couldn't stop thinking about it. I realise how stupid I was"
"I really don't understand you. One minute you say you like me and the next you're banging my best friend"
"What?"
"The shower, earlier?"
"Oh god"
"I'm fine with it but just answer me one question"
"Anything"
"Why didn't you tell me?"
"Honestly? I don't know"
"You dont know?"
"I didn't want you to hate me"
"If you had just told me then I wouldn't have hated you"
"Do you hate me now?"
"Eh" I shrug

"Matt? What the hell are you doing?" I look behind Matt to see Amy quickly walking towards us. Matt looks apologetically at me.
"It's fine, go"
"Thanks Sky" I turn to continue walking
"Aren't you coming?" He asks
"No, you go"I call over my shoulder
"And Sky?" I stop once again "I'm sorry" he smiles. I think this time he actually means it.

I carry on walking and I don't look behind again.