Sky Walker|Sodapop Curtis

LETTER

Letter
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Dear Sodapop Curtis,

I'm writing this letter and quite honestly don't know if I plan to send it. However, you need to understand things from my point of view, you need to know the truth. I didn't cheat on you with Mark, I would never because you are literally the sweetest , most caring guy ever and I never wanted to loose you, but you don't seem to believe this. My words are not enough to persuade you now, and I'm doubting if they ever will be.

Is it fair to me to be stuck on a guy who I caught feelings for when all he does is accuse me of lying and betraying his trust? The truth is, it isn't, it isn't fair.So why am I so hung up on you still? You see, Sodapop, I care deeply about you and I never want to loose you like I mentioned before. It could be stated in a much easier way, I really really really like you, maybe even stronger than like, and I was too scared to admit it and I know you are too. Or at least you were.

Considering I'm such a horrible person in your eyes now, I might as well start from the beginning, the summer before 8th grade year. (Quick a/n: in case anyone is confused the ages are a bit messed up cause I'm an idiot but from now on, Katy is one year apart from Lisa, Linda, and Richard who are triplets. Katy is 16 and they are 18. They are all in their last year of high school though because Katy was able to get all of her high school credits completed.) I was going into 8th grade and Richard was going into 9th. This was before I had met Adam, before I had become the 'Greaser lover'. I was loved and accepted by my family and had a normal life, a house to live in and food to eat everyday. The summer before 8th grade was when Richard met Mark, the summer before 8th grade was when everything went wrong, when the train derailed off the tracks.

Mark and Richard became best friends, inseparable. Considering Richard and I were the closest siblings, Richard's friends where my friends too. Mark started out being nice, but then he got aggressive. It seemed that every chance he got he'd confess his love to me. It was getting to the point where I was afraid to spend time with him alone unsure if he was going to force me to do something I didn't want to do.

My cautious thinking got me no where though. Mark got smarter as the summer went on and I became more trusting. By the end of summer I allowed myself to spend time with Mark alone and it didn't end well. He raped me and I will never forgive him for this.

Mark and Richard never ended their friendship, even after I confessed to Richard about what happened and how it made me feel. Richard didn't care, he didn't believe me, he thought I simply wanted more attention. That obviously wasn't the case and I began to feel like an outsider in the Soc world. Everywhere I went I was reminded of Mark. My solution was simple, hang out with Greasers. And that's how I became the 'Greaser lover'. It honestly seemed like Mark changed Richard or blackmailed him, or something. I'll never forget the look in Richard's eyes when I told him, I saw pain and regret in his eyes but he turned on me. Our relationship was never the same and it never will be the same.

So why'd I tell you that sob story? Simple, now you know why I hate Richard and Mark with a passion and you know that I'd never do anything with him, ever. I guess Mark never fully got over his obsession with me and just has some morbid way of showing it. Before you, Sodapop, I was afraid to love, afraid to get hurt again. I didn't trust any boys but Adam and I honestly surprised myself with how comfortable I got with the gang in such a quick period of time. Sodapop you were the best thing that happened to me and I can't loose you, I wouldn't be able to function without you.

Love,
Kathryn Williams