I Love My Love

my mother's interlude:

At 16 I was pregnant with what I thought would be a blessing
I never even questioned the commitment or consequences
Scared to say at least, but this love shit is all I got
To become a mom without one hurts, but I promised you'd have a lot
You were about 4 or 5 when your dad left us for that broad..
Took'em six whole years to come around' n' tell it all
You picked up the phone, member?
"Mom..some lady Stella called"
One baby girl and a newborn boy that weren't even mine
I always told that n*gga I wanted a big family, it just wasn't time
All we did was fight, he'd put his hands on me like every night
I watched you watch me suffer
Then shortly after, as you was crying
You said "Mom..Where was God?"
You kept going, even after I yelled stop
Trust me..it won't happen again
He could get the fuck up out my house with his bitch ass lyin'
Fuck every kid he got and ima kill his baby mama, watch
Thank god we ain't committed by the law
He got me fucked up fucking around, but to go inside it raw
After everything we went thru, time hasn't made shit more simple
Hate to look my baby in the face and see him in you
No sight of pistols but he had me whipped around his bullshit
I'm sorry I fucked you hp
Promise me you won't lose it..
Men have a habit of saying shit they don't mean then never prove it
Your grandpa loved to remind me that these n*ggas ain't shit
Wish he was a free man so he could see my downfall