Wanderlust

{5}

Okay so, im in the mood to write and I have nothing to write about so I'm just going to write about one of my favourite people, *insert name here*, aka my girlfriend.

Now yes people will say "Your 14, your not capable of holding a steady relationship" and no their not wrong. I know things don't alway go to plan, but people take the fact that I'm 14 too ruin anything good that happens to me by convincing me I'm 'too young'. But enough with my sob story of a life lets talk about my gorgeous girlfriend.

She isn't the most confident person, but neither am i. So I compliment her as much as possible (OoO cRiNgY rElAtIoNsHiP) and yes that won't help much but I try my best.

I do get upset over us being together sometimes though. For many reasons, such as 'what if I meet someone else and love them more and then do something fucked up and lose the best thing I have right now' or 'what if we never meet and we can never defeat this ever growing void of vast cities, towns and villages that stands between us'. But since it's hit me that we've been together for a month on Wednesday (7th Feb 2018) I don't think either of those things are possible.

 I honestly love this girl so much and sometimes she doesn't see it or doesn't understand why I love her, and thats what upsets me. She can get herself into these patches where she shuts down and doubts everything. and I know she'll read this so if you are, heres just a few things that make me love you the way I do :                                                                                                                                                    1} You're gorgeous in every sense of the word                                                                                                                  2} You're hilarious and your jokes have me in stitches most times                                                                       3} You're so caring of other people even after they've been dicks to you multiple times                            4} In the words of Winnie The Pooh 'Your braver than you believe, smarter than you think and      stronger than you seem'                                                                                                                                                               5} When I'm not in a good mood just seeing your name pop up on my screen can put a smile on my face                                                                                                                     

So please, next time your confused to why I 'picked you' come back to this and read those 5 reasons again or ask me for new ones.

And for those not bothered about what I fill my spare time with, please feel free to skip past this chapter. I apologise that this isn't some poetry shit but I just felt like giving a beautiful human being some recognition. 

But now ill stop talking about 'my beloved' as my family now call her. As much as I don't want to, I have to go to sleep because it is currently 3:07am while I'm typing this. So, bye? I guess? never know how to end these entries.

- Rachel x