You stopped talking to him and you don't know how you feel about it... you sometimes wanna go up to him and hug him, talk to him but you can't... because if you do, you would fall again...he once said "do you want me to stop talking to you, would that make it better?", you said "no, I've pretend to be okay for a while so I'll be okay". See when you told yourself this, you lied because you didn't wanna be his friend at the time... you wanted something more..later on you texted him and said "sorry I can't be your friend, it hurts to much bye"... but you wish you could still talk to him... but you can't since you don't see him as just a friend...
