My mom opened the door and let him in. He came over to me with a smile. I brought him to my room and closed the door. My mom left. We were alone.
He told me what I was doing wrong. He said that I should stop impressing you because you didn't care about me. He said that no one cared about me except for him. So I had to be good for him.
He told me that I wasn't allowed to go to your games or practices. He thought you were a threat. And he saw my vest hanging in my closet. He started yelling. He threw it at me and pushed me to the floor. I was laying on my back and he put his foot on my stomach. He yelled in my face. He told me that I was dumb for trying to impress you. He told me that he would break up with me. And leave me with no one.
He told me that my parents got divorced because of me. He told me that my friends didn't want to be around me anymore. He told me I was a bad boyfriend. And a bad person.
He kicked me in the side. I curled into a ball and he kicked my back. I was crying. I told him I was sorry. He said he didn't care. When he was done kicking me he went over to my dresser. I stood up and tried to calm him down. I kept telling him I was sorry.
He grabbed my arms and pushed me onto my bed. He stood over me and told me that if I was really sorry, I'd give him what he wanted. All that he was asking for. He wanted to have sex. That's the only reason he cared. I told him that. He threw me on the ground.
He got on top of me and pinned my arms to the ground. I was screaming. He kissed me. I tried to resist but he wouldn't let me. He bit my lip. He bit it twice. Hard. I gave in.
He let go of my arms and moved onto running his fingers in my hair. I hated when he did that. He kissed me more and I kissed back. I tried to not let the tears fall.
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Oh my goodness gracious you guysss!! I'm so fricken sad that this book is over!! I actually enjoyed writing it so much. Like, half the time I was writing as Jonah and half the time I was writing as myself. I am planning on writing a Cyrus fanfic next, but I'm wondering if you guys would mind if I posted one from a different fandom (I'm a part of a lot).
Context for this chapter: it was Cyrus telling Jonah about Walker abusing him
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Confusion. // Jyrus
FanfictionThe story of a young Jonah Beck struggling with his sexuality, and being utterly confused about who he is. Along with trying to win the man of his dreams. Told in his perspective as he documents it all.
