Confusion. // Jyrus

Chapter 8

It is impossible to ignore Cyrus. All of that night my phone just kept on vibrating and I ended up putting our conversation on silent. He just kept on apologizing and pleading for me to respond. I also got a call from Buffy and she ordered me to answer him, but I didn't listen. I just didn't feel like talking to him because I knew he'd just defend Walker. Once I got to school, I avoided eye contact. He was at every turn, trying to come over to me, but I'd walk away before he'd get there. But, he was in my science class.

He had always been taking honors classes, and they didn't offer an honors 7th grade science class, so they just stuck him in my regular ed one. Walker was also in that class, he's in my grade and takes all accelerated classes except for that one so that he could be with Cyrus.

I could feel Cyrus' eyes on me the entire class time, but I just doodled on my paper. After class, I quickly slid all of my papers into my binder and grabbed my backpack. When I turned to walk out, Cyrus was right in front of me with Walker close behind.

"What?" I asked through gritted teeth.

Cyrus shifted his weight from side to side. "Well, I wanted to apologize."

He prompted Walker and motioned for him to continue. Walker said, "Me, too," not looking me in the eye.

I gripped my bag and pushed past them, starting for the door. I had just walked out when I felt a hand around my arm that whipped me around. Cyrus kept his hand on my arm as he watched Walker walk in the opposite direction down the hallway and rolled his eyes. I hadn't realized how long we were touching. I was staring at his hand on me, my heart stopped. Cyrus let go and when I looked back up at him, his face was full of concern.

"Are you alright?" he asked.

I guess I'd never realized how worrisome my face looked when I wasn't smiling all of the time. "I'm fine," I said as a started to walk away. Cyrus ran out in front of me, stopping me.

"Is it about what Walker said? I'm sorry, I should've said something. I know how much Ultimate means to you."

God, I wanted to kiss him. Or, is that weird? I wanted to hug him. Yeah. I didn't want to keep hearing him apologizing for his stupid boyfriend, so I smiled and said I was fine before walking away. But, he stopped me again.

"Are you sure?" I nodded. His face was still full of concern, like he didn't believe me. Like he actually cared about my well being. "You know you can talk to me about anything, right?" he asked.

I looked deep into his brown eyes and saw that he truly cared.

"I'm bi," I said.

His face seemed to lift, the concern washing away. "Phew," he said, pretending to wipe sweat from his forehead. "I thought it was something bad."

I squinted my eyes at him.

"Well, that's just not a big deal. It's nothing to be worried about, you'll be fine. Thanks for telling me though, I appreciate it."

My heart rate decreased and I could feel my body returning to its normal state. Cyrus looked around. "Well, I've gotta go. Don't wanna be late for class." And then he quickly walked away.

I stayed for a moment, feeling the weight of the world lift off of my shoulders. What was I so afraid of? Obviously Cyrus was going to be supportive, he's gay! And he's the nicest person ever! I guess I might have hoped he would realize he still has feelings for me after knowing that there was a chance that I liked him. Oh, I hope he doesn't tell Walker.

Maybe I should give the guy a shot. He clearly means a lot to Cyrus, and I care a lot about Cyrus. Maybe we just got off on the wrong foot and he's actually a really nice. I vowed to be as nice as possible around Walker, especially at Mini Golf.