Accidental Love

~Truth~

Queen's pov

I was devastated. Brandon hadn't talk to me in weeks. Slowly he was healing and I was glad. But then the smile on my face would turn into a frown when I saw him conversate with other girls at games or meet and greets.

I lifted my pure further up my shoulder as it slipped down. School as only a drag nowadays.  The burden of not having Brandon by my side made me feel incomplete. Like a jigsaw puzzle that was missing a couple pieces. Life isn't all a breeze without him. He made me feel wanted and secure. A feeling I knew I couldn't get anywhere else. I've grown up maybe looking forward love in the wrong places. With Brandon it felt right. It felt like a breath of fresh air. He was my oxygen. And now without him I couldn't breathe.

I sat on the bench in deep thought as gelo sat next to me. "He is feeling the same way you are" he said out of the blue.  I snapped back to reality. "Who?" I asked.

"Brandon. Who else?" He said chuckling lightly. He brought a thumb to my cheek and wiped tears I didn't notice had fallen. "Your my little sis. My only sis, I don't want to see you crying. I know you are hurt. I know you have a tight grip on your heart. But loosen that grip queen. Brandon loves you. He still does. He asks me for you everyday" gelo said.

I shook my head not believing any of it. I've been fed lies before, and i didn't feel like being fed them now. "No he continues his life. He doesn't care about me anymore. Two weeks ago in that hospital room he told me to leave. Liangelo he told me to leave..." I whispered my voice on the verge of cracking.

"He only told you to leave because he needed to think. Think about your relationship as a couple."

I sniffled. "If I told you to die. And you actually went through with it and ended up in the hospital, would you still love me?" I asked.

Gelo kept quiet as if choosing his words carefully.

"Exactly. Thanks for the talk gelo but not thanks" I said. He shook his head. "Queen I would still love you no matter what." He whispered.

I turned around. "Why"

"Because you're queen"

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I went home still in deep thought. "May I come in" I heard my mom say. "Yes ma!" I yelled. She came in smiling at me. After all this woman been through she still she smiles.  I admired her for that.

"I know you love that boy. I know that I've pushed you away for him. I am here as a mother and not as someone of power who is trying to control your life. You can't do this to yourself. You have to go after him. If he is your oxygen you gotta go after that breathe. Before you suffocate". She got up and kissed my forehead and left my room.

I went to Brandon's house.

I touched the door I use to have the key to. The door I had free permission to enter and exit as I pleased. I knocked it.

He came in the doorway. "What do you want queen?" He sighed. My name sounded foreign on his tongue.

"Look I came because I don't wanna suffocate" I whispered. He was about to close the door. "Brandon, please don't. Just hear me out" I said looking into his eyes. He looked me up and down. As if questioning if I was a threat.

He nodded letting me in. He sat on the couch infront of me. "So what you gotta say" he said impatiently.

"I need you Brandon" I said to him. "And i needed you too queen but I guess life ain't in favor of us" he said. "Thats the saddest thing I ever heard" I said.

"No! You know what the saddest thing is?! Its talking to someone you care about and then you hurt them and they say that they are use to it." He said.

"I hurt you, you hurt m-

"Listen to me! Don't come here and do this." He said rubbing his hand over his face.

So I just used my voice to get to him.

I wiped my tears as he looked at me questionably.

Life is something that we need,

But how can I live if I can't even breathe.

All wanted was to just be me, minus the crying pains and all of the screams.

Dont ask me how I feel when I'm with you cuz honestly I don't even know what I'm going through.

Its a roller coaster. A rush. My feelings. My feelings, my feelings get crushed.

And I swear when I'm with you my heart flutters, I forget all my issues, and my issues are pissed too,

Cuz I've found happiness, and... My happiness is you.

I can't say i know the true meaning of love, this ain't a story or a problem you solve.

Where the prince and the princess share a kiss. True love is more than a kiss.

Its a hit or miss.

A ride or die.

Its a will you be here for the rest of my life?

Then when we're old enough make me your wife. Hold my hand at the altar and look in my eyes.

When I'm not alright ask me if I'm okay at times, I feel like there's no other way. But you always lead me to a better day.

I appreciate you, I hope that you stay.

They say you gotta be independent, self sufficient, yet they take me for granted. Call me bold but my heart is just frozen and cold. How can you trade a diamond for a rock? A flower for a stem? A key for a lock. Living life, but idk w-

"Queen. Stop! You can't just serenade me to love you again. I love you with my body but mentally I'm not in love you. I can't get over the fact that I wasted my time on you. You mean nothing to me anymore. And I don't wanna see you again. So please leave my house." He said pushing me hard. My eyes laced in fear as wildness flashed in his.

"Don't ever put me in no shame. Mama told me never mess with a lame. And now that we done, Imma push you out my land, don't talk about me, don't speak on my name. They say I gotta be perfect, hold my head high so I know that I'm worth it. Build a wall so that I can stop the hurting".

When I reached to the door I held the knob opening it as the drizzled rain splashed my face. I looked back at him.

"Brandon I hope that your happy that you closed this curtain..."

And with that I left, and I don't think I was going to ever come back there.

How y'all like. I actually wrote the song myself. I know I know. Did y'all like it?

Please comment and vote for the next chapter.

What y'all want to happen with Queen and Brandon?

Do she need a new boo. If she do then who?