Fuck Me Or Fear Me

7. i wont accept this

" Do you have a death wish or what? " he stood up and grabbed my upper arm tightly. Which was causing me pain as well as something else coz his hand was touching my bare skin. Why the hell am i feeling goosebumps? 

No track changing samaira

" staying with anyone against my will is the only option with death then I'll choose death happily " i tried to jerk his hand but he grabbed my other arm too and was too close to me now. Too close. God he is handsome.

" be careful what you are wishing for samaira. I can give you death. But not yours. But the people you want to go back to. " it took me some seconds to realise what the hell does he actually mean and after that i was in shock for some more second.

" what the hell do you mean by that? " i tried to make my voice intimidating like him to warn him but failed badly.

Very badly.

" you very well know what i mean "

" dont you dare lay a single finger on my family otherwise you wont be able to use your fingers. I'll break each one of them " he raised his eyes surprised by my words. I guess when your family is in danger you dont need any push to make tings happen.

" I'm so scared " he made a frown and a puppy face feigning scary face and i got more angry. I pushed him as hard as possible and he let me and continued. His closeness was suffocating me. " you know i can do anything if i want. I want you samaira and for that i will do anything. If that means just to tame you i have to kill your fam....." i interrupted him with pointing my finger at him and glaring him as best i can so he stop his words at that exact moment.

" you are so insensitive. You are so inhuman. "

" happy realisation " he said while shrugging his shoulders

" are you even hearing yourself rehaan. " i realised how comfortable i am with telling his name and the effect i have on him when i say his name. The way i get his full attention and the way he savours his name from my tongue. I made a point to use it against him. I can convince him. I can talk to him somehow. " do you even realise what are you doing to me? Are you in your senses. You are playing with my life. My emotions. You want my body but i cant do that till my soul is connected to you. To bond physically with anyone i need to bond emotionally with him. And i can never do that with a person who has kidnapped me and is blackmailing me. " my words were affecting him. I can see he is not able to make eye contact with me anymore and has turned his back on me. He is not that bad. He has a conscience i just need to make him realise it.

I went over and scurried for that thing in my purse. I now realised my hands were literally shaking and i wonder i should show him this or not. He can use it against me.

I picked it which would have been a start of a totally new life if only i would have been not here right now. Finally i would have been free from the burden I've carried all this years but life is weird

I went over to his direction and look him in his eye. All emotions wich were there before was gone but i still continued.

" you see this? I've been waiting for this from so long. I was just about to take the final step ahead towards my duty just the day you decided to kidnap me. I was so excited for this. So waiting for this. You just have to come and ruin everything. Why? " i shoved it in his face and he was eying the paper from top to bottom.

He glance at my direction then at the thing in my hand and took it. He took it and was examining it thoroughly now.

" what is this? "

" its an evidence. Its a proof that my dad was innocent and its trial was today. And you just....." i couldnt complete it and started sobbing. I hate to cry in front of this man and i know i shouldn't have tell him about this coz he just wont care but i couldnt stop myself. Maybe he will have mercy in me. May be.