Fuck Me Or Fear Me

4. I'll not cower down

Though i was terrified i didnt show him on my face.

He took slow tortorous steps towards me and i stood with my back straight. " A normal calling might be having network errors. Lets do video calling "

I'm too speechless to tell any thing. am i still dreaming or what.  do i still need to wake up or what.

I surreptitiously blink my eyes tight and open again to check I'm dreaming or not but still no change. i even pinch myself but nothing

I've been kidnapped. my abductor simply says me be ready tonight im goin to rape you. he purposely leaves me my cellphone to call and i so stupidly did and now he's telling we are gonna have a video call

He place his left hand on my lower waist and continues pressing some buttons on a weird kind of remote and a screen flashes in front of me. The sun rays was flashing on the screen. It was a solar screen.

We both were facing the sun and i was actually asking for it to give me strength

He actually calls jay from it. I already get the feeling this is going to be real real bad

As expected and as I've read in my novels jay was tied to a chair blindfolded and gagged. He was unconscious and surrounded by goons. As I've read in my novels this is the part where the protagonist goes total weak and is ready to do anything to save her loved ones

But I'll not go weak...I'll not cower down in fear....he wanted me to say sumtin...he wants me to plead beg...he waited and waited but i said nothing

" you clearly defied my two direct orders samaira. the first one was dont do anything stupid but you did. and second i told you to be ready for me at my arrival. well lets deal with the second one later. Since your oh so called best friend already knows you are kidnapped and the courtesy clearly goes to you. You know i cant let him live now " i was hurting my palm with my nails. I had kept my fist closed so tightly. But i calmed myself and opened it

" You are a murderer too " i turned my head side and looked straight in his eyes. Its difficult to digest this tag on him when he has such a beautiful face. 

" as if you didnt know "

" ofcose i didnt knew. i dont know you right but thanks for confirming. I dont even know your name and i dont even want to " he leaned a bit towards me his hands still on my waist.

" even i dont know you much but i can guess....courtesy to my common sense btw....You are not that naive that you might not pick that i can go to such level too. If i can kidnap someone then i can even kill someone "

" so you are going to kill him? "

" yes...do i have any other option...well let me think....I've kidnapped a girl and someone out there clearly knows this thing so i need to cut him off ryt " he pretended to be so guilty of doing that and his blank face and attitude was just getting on my nerves.

I jerked his hand and push him back
" fine...go on....kill him "

he was shocked would be an understatement...but i was totally cool with the shocked and calm abductor of mines rather than a furios one which he clearly turned right in front of me

the way his eyes are glaring at me and the way he has just gone speechless. The way he is gritting his jaw and the way he is trying to crush the phone.

fuck fuck fuck i played it wrong

" burn him alive " he ordered his men

i was shocked by his order but i knew he wouldn't continue.....but when they started pouring alcohol all over him amd they still didnt stopped and he still didnt order them to stop i swear my heart almost came till my mouth

I waited and waited coz i was damn sure he wont kill him so easily but the way his men was moving it was not looking like they will stop till they burn jay alive.

" fuck stop them " i took a step and tried to snatch the phone from him but he was quick. Like i would snatch and order them and they will listen to me.

" why shud i? You want him dead i want him dead so lets just kill him. Watch him. "  in front of me jay was dripping in alcohol and one of his men was standing with a lighter ready to burn.

My eyes were glossy which clearly means I'm shit scared now. He can clearly see that in my eyes and even I'm not hiding " shit i was kidding. i was kidding dammit. i knew you wouldn't kill him. i knew you purposely made me do dat. i knew you wanted me to call him. i know you want something out of this. fuck tell them to stop this " he now threw the phone in anger and crushed it into pieces with his leg.

What the hell. Shit. 

He grabbed my upper arm and pinned me to the railing. If i lose slight balance i can fall but when looked right into my eye fuck i swear he was more deadly now.  if i see him this angry automatically my fear will make me do anything.

point to be noted. never make him this angry. but he already is and fuck i dont know what to do

He grabbed my jaw and continued " i told you not to play games with me. yes i didn't wanted to kill him. yes i wanted something out of this. but screw it. once i said something it should be done and now your beloved friend might be dead any moment. You dont know me but i guess when you will finally know the real me you wont even up your eyes in front of me  " and with that he showed me his back and was going away

the moment his eyes left mine and his hand left me and the touch was lost i felt i lost it. i felt everything slipping. i already felt the pain which jay must have to  go through coz of me and the pleasure which he was feeling enjoying the moment scared the shit out of me

fuck this is no joke. I'm kidnapped and I'm into some serious shit. i cant play so casually. fuck i dont even want to.play. I'm kidnapped and this is no joke. 

Fuck i dont even know his name. I ran after him and held his hand. For the first time in life i voluntarily touched a man and his eyes were on me again and i felt relieved. If his attention is somehow on me it makes me feel he might just listen to me. i just feel if his eyes turn away and if he ignores me i might be doomed

i know its a weird thot bit a thot is a thot. i need to act and act quick

" listen....listen I'm sorry....I'm sorry." i didnt even knew i was stammering but i was and my throat was totally dry which was making it difficult to speak " you didnt plan to kill him so pl...please...please dont kill him....he's my friend you cant just kill him so randomly...and that too becoz of my mistake....I'm sorry i defied your orders...tell me what did you wanted before I'll do it.....please "

" i dont give a damn now "

" please I'm sorry " he looked at me for more five seconds and then replied

" i thot about killing two birds with one stone. i wanted you to call him and tell.him you are kidnaped. then i would have kidnap him and scare you by just threatning to kill him. then i thot that since you might have done anything i wanted you to call each one of your freinds and family and tell them that you are leaving this city and going to pursue further studies in another country. that way they would have never tried to search for you and as far as this friend of your. i would have left him and he might have gone crazy trying to proof everyone that you are kidnaped and tried searching for you coz nobody will ever believed him coz you on the other hand will be clearly active on all social sites and on top of it you called him. That would have gotten you under my control and i would have simply gotten my sweet small simply revenge on him too for trying to kiss what's mine "

His words were so much to process that i couldnt come up with a reply.

Jay was tryin to kiss me. but when?

And I'm his. From when?

" i  must say you are too smart for your own good. but i also told you dont try to outsmsart me. " his words made me snap back to reality where somewhere jay lofe is in danger
" keep imagining him dying somewhere now. I'm goin to freshen up enjoy. " and he once again turned his back and went away