Fuck Me Or Fear Me

22. Be mine

Day 4. 11.30 pm

We were still in the exact same position. His hands on my cheeks. His lips on my lips. Why cant i get enough of him.  What kind of twisted shit this is.

" i can give you everything you want samaira. You just need to ask. Name it and it will be yours. You just have to be mine. "

"  I have dreams. I want my dreams. Can you give me that? " Our foreheads were connected and we were just talking. Not going for each other throats. Not screaming not yelling.

Just talking like two civilised people

" Tell me your dream job. I'll let you work if i can trust you fully. I'll make sure you work where you want to work " is he mad. He knows everything about me then dont he know wat is my biggest dream.

And even if i had a dream job i wont let him help me.

" You know it Its not some dream job or like that. I want to rebuild my dad company and clear his name anyhow "

" I'll do that " he didn't even think for a moment and answered this and i pulled away from him and looked in his eye. He actually meant that.

He will look after my dad company and bring it back to life. Even if for a moment i think about that he is a good businessman. He can really turn a company which has loss its essence to a great height.

But would dad like that. That her daughter sold herself to a man for this. It will have no meaning for him.

" My dreams will have its meaning if achieved by me only so wen i look back i feel like this is what I've struggled. Rehaan you dont understand. I want to do it solely and make my dad proud of me " and i detached myself from him totally and sat side by side.

I still haven't touched my food and now I'm hungry " i know I'm not being reasonable but fuck i cant help it. Listen i want you samaira but only with your permission. I still can give you the deal. Give me yourself and get everything you want back. Your freedom dreams wateva. I just want you. Be mine " is this guy for really real. Is he insane or god knows what.

I'm getting piss but i really dont wanna argue. So i go for my food which for him would be like I'm talking to you and you are ignoring but i really dont care.

I had my first bite chewed it slowly and all the while he was eying me like dammit answer. And then i answered " Define be mine "

He took a moment to answer that and i continued with my food. For a moment i thought he didn't listen or won't answer but i looked his way and he was contemplating how to answer that in a way which wont hurt me.

My eye was still on him and i want him to look me in my eye and answer that. And he did. " Like no strings attached but just hard core sex. After I'm satisfied with you. You live your life. I live mine. "

But i guess he didn't find it coz that did hurt. Just sex with a man without any connection. Just sleep with him. Just like that.

That will hurt me to the core

" that sounds so simple to you. Even if i fall in love with someone it will take a lot of guts in me to sleep with him. And you are telling me to have sex with you without any attachment " and he lowered his eyes clearly not hiding that my words does make him feel guilty. But he also doesn't care.

" I dont know what to say but there is a want in me for you. A lust at first sight type. Girls are my weakness samaira. Wen i want den i want dem. By hook or by crook " someone take this man out of my sight please.

But wait.

He just said after sex we go separate ways.

" Wat about you told me you will sell me in one week. " what if he forgot about it and I'm reminding him. He's a smart asshole man. Men like him has every move on every word.