Saved In The A.M.

17-Perfect

I'm so sorry this update took so long, I've been super busy with school and I keep getting distracted reading other fanfics :,)
Also I'm sorry this is probably the worst chapter, I kinda had writers bock but at least I gave a little something to make it more interesting, this is more of a context chapter though :)
- All the love x
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———LOUIS' POV———
Beeeep beep. Beeeep beep. Beeeep beep.
"Hi baby how are you going, you're calling early is everything okay?" Mums voice drifts through the phone.
"I'm fine Mum, it's 7am so you're usually up at this time anyway, I just woke up and couldn't get back to sleep so I decided to call you, how are you?"
"a bit worried love, how are you feeling? Have you eaten? Have you seen Harry? Have you TALKED to Harry?"
I sigh as I look down at the sleeping boy next to me.
"I'm feeling content, I have eaten, I have seen him and I have talked to him"
"Oh good! I'm glad, how did it go?"
I get up and head downstairs as she speaks, being so early, no one else is awake and I take a seat on the couch.
"It was so weird Mum"
"How come?"
"Well as you know, I was going for dinner here last night and as I was about 10 minutes off, Liam calls me right, and remember how I told you that Liam told me that for the last few weeks that Harry had changed and never was around anymore and would disappear throughout the whole day, everyday like routine? And when he was home he would only be in my room?"
"Yes I remember"
"Well Liam tells me that they had a bit of a disagreement and it resulted in Liam grabbing Harry's wrist which apparently hurt Harry a lot more than what it should have"
"Oh god"
"No shit mum that's what I was thinking"
"Louis! Don't swear!"
"Sorry love you, anyway, Liam noticed blood seeping through Harry's jacket and Harry races up to my room and locks himself in there and I assume he self harmed because when he eventually came out a few hours later and Zayn and Niall were there at this point and unknowingly, Zayn also grabbed Harry's wrist once he finally came out and Harry lost it and shoved Zayn into the wall then left and there was blood droplets all over the floor from his wrist and that's when Liam called me right"
"Oh wow okay keep going baby"
"Well I rocked up 10 minutes later and Liam directs me on where to go"
"Okay"
"So we end up 2 hours later all the way down at Camber Sands beach!"
"Gosh that's miles away"
"I know, anyway, it's raining and gloomy but it's still light and I look out towards the ocean and see Harry attacking his surfing board"
"I didn't know he surfed"
"He took it up while I was away"
"Oh, well go on"
"So I race down to him and he breaks down in hysterics just as I reach him and I hold him as he cries and his wrist is bleeding from the adrenaline causing his heart to beat faster I assume and eventually he either drifts off to sleep or passes out because I imagine he's exhausted"
"Right, that makes sense, but oh lou that's so sad"
"Yeah I know, I didn't think it was this bad but anyway, we get him into the car and we head home and leave his car there because we can just call someone to pick it up so it's not a big deal and we thought it'd be better if we were all together"
"Yeah that makes sense"
"So about half way into the drive home, Liam was driving, Niall was in the passenger seat, I was in the back seat with Harry's head in my lap and the rest of him stretched across the seats and Zayn was behind us, Harry wakes up and asks where he is so I tell him and ready, as soon as he realises it's me, he loses his shit"
"Louis!!! I'm not telling you again!"
"Oops, my bad, anyway, he forces Liam to pull over on the highway, tears running down his cheeks and as soon as he stumbles out of the car he vomits!"
"Oh my goodness"
"I know! So I get out to comfort him and he pushes my hand off his back and glares at me, I could physically see the hate in his eyes and I didn't know what to do so I just stared back and I swear to god he brushed his wet hair out of his face because it was still raining and one curl falls out and onto his forehead and I am not joking, he looked like an angel, I've never seen anyone as beautiful as him"
"Louis baby you're so sweet"
"Mum it's true! Okay anyway, I go to comfort him again but instead Niall gives me a look implying that he should go so I let him and I get back in the car and have a bit of a cry because it's my fault all this happened"
"Louis don't you dare say that, it is in no way your fault! You never would have known this was going to happen, you just wanted to do what was best for you to get better"
"I know Mum but obviously I still feel guilty, how can I not, my boyfriend self harms and broke down right in front of me"
"I know sweetie but it's still not your fault, how about you just continue the story"
"Okay... well we just kinda sit in silence for the rest of the drive and when we get home harry races up to my room and I give him some space and have a late dinner with the boys and Zayn goes and talks to him then comes back after a while and says he agreed to talk to me finally after so many weeks and so I go up there and apologise for everything, really sincerely and at the start he was so mad but by the end, I even used one of the lines from the song he wrote me"
"If I could fly?"
"Yes that one, and by the end he broke down again so I comforted him until we fell asleep and now here I am talking to you"
"Wow"
"What do I do now?"
"The ball is in his court baby, there's nothing you can do except wait"
"Mmm I guess you're right, how are the girls?"
"They miss you already"
"I miss them too and about that, I think I'm gonna stay here, Harry needs me and I need him and I think I'm well enough to look after myself and I know for sure that the boys will keep me on track"
"Are you sure that it's safe baby?"
"Yeah Mum I can do this"
"Okay well come collect your things whenever you want"
"I'll come in the next couple of days, I've gotta go now and have breakfast, I love you"
"I love you too baby, if you ever need to call me please don't hesitate, I always have time for you"
"Okay Mum love you bye"
"Bye lou"
I hang up and get off the couch and head to the kitchen.

I grab the bread off the bench and put 2 slices in the toaster then open the fridge and take out some breakfast juice and a nectarine. Not long after, the toast pops up and I slather Nutella on the two slices then bring my food to the couch and turn on the tv. Liam comes through the front door stealthily until he notices me sitting on the couch.

"Oh I thought everyone was asleep" he states.
"Everyone else is, where have you been?" I ask confused as to why he's arriving home so early in the morning.
"erm I went to the gym" he says cautiously.
"Then where are your gym clothes" I ask, pointing out that he's wearing more going out clothes.
"I got changed at the gym" he lies.
"Liam, I of all people know the inside outs of lies so quit it because no one wears dressy clothes after the "gym" at 7 in the fucken morning mate" I air quote looking at him expectantly.
"Alright I'll tell you but I swear to god Louis you can't tell anyone, not even Harry" he warns me.
"Liam, yet again, I of all people know how to keep a secret, for God's sake you eventually saw how well I kept mine" I remind him.
"Okay well you might wanna be sitting down for this" he informs me.
"Liam I clearly am sitting down" I reply.
"Right sorry, I just felt like in a serious situation it's what everyone says" he defends.
"Holy fuck Liam spit it out already" I glare.
"Okay well, erm, I was at Cher's, we're kind of together" he reveals to me.
"Cher Lloyd?!" I question a bit too loudly.
"No mate, Cher as in Cheryl as in Cheryl Cole" he informs me.
"Oh my god are you serious?!" I exclaim.
"No Louis I'm joking?" He says satirically.
"Heyyy, no need to be rude Li, that's so weird! There's like 10 years between you two! And she was there when you were auditioning for Xfactor like isn't that weird" I ask him honestly.
"Honestly? No not at all, we've been together for a few months now actually" he tells me.
"Wow I mean if you're happy, that's great! I'm super excited for you!" I say as I take a bite of my nectarine after finishing my toast.
"Thanks mate I appreciate it, I'm gonna go get some proper sleep. If you know what I mean" he laughs.
"Liam you dirty, dirty boy" I chuckle as I get up myself and put my dishes away.

I head back to my room and get into bed again with Harry, he rolls over and starts speaking in that deep morning voice that I can never get enough of.
"Where'd you go?" He pouts and I wrap my arm around him, softly tickling his arm.
"I went for a run" I say to him.
"Louis you're not supposed to be exercising yet" he states.
"Baby I'm just fucking with you, I actually went down and had some toast and a nectarine, Liam saw so you can even ask him" I reassure him.
"Louis don't scare me like that please baby" he says unhappy with me.
"Lighten up Haz, it's okay, I'm okay" I say as I place a gentle kiss on his forehead and squeeze him a bit tighter. He just sighs and wraps an arm around my torso and intertwines our legs.

"Your feet are coldddd" I whine.
"Well unless you can be bothered getting up, finding a pair of socks and physically putting them on my feet, stop complaining and let me sleep mister." He says playfully. I go to get up but he holds me tighter so I can't.
"Harry I actually can be bothered you sook" I joke.
"Sorry baby, you're here now you're not allowed to leave again, when I woke up this morning and you weren't in bed I was lonely and assumed you might have gone home" he opens up.
"Baby I'm staying okay, stop worrying your pretty head, the only reason I'm going home is to go collect my things but you can come with me and make sure I come back okay?" I reassure him.
"Mmmkay" he sighs and minutes later we both drift off to sleep.

I wake up again around 10am and see Harry has rolled over back into his side and the softest snores are emitted from he's mouth. I decide to get up and get changed because I want to take Harry out somewhere today. I stretch out my body and head to the closet, sliding the mirrored doors open then picking out a classic "Louis Tomlinson" outfit, black skinny jeans, a tank top and vans. I strip down and can't help but examine my body in the mirror, I haven't quite decided how I feel about it, I'm slowly learning to accept my body for what it is even though I worked so hard to get it where it was but I know that I'm already much healthier even though I'm not at the doctor's goal weight yet. I stand on the side and suck in, reminiscing about how I used to look until I hear Harry stir and continue to get changed.

"Baby if you keep examining your body like that, you're gonna fall back into the trap" he warns me softly.
"I know, it's just force of habit I guess" I reply truthfully.
"Just remember you're perfect to me, no matter what you look like, you'll always be perfect" he tells me and as I pull my jeans up and my top down.
"I love you I love you I love you" I jump on him, attacking him with kisses.