Saved In The A.M.

25-Fire Away

———HARRY'S POV———
"Why the fuck is this happening to me" I repeat over and over again, tears streaming down my face, slamming my hands onto the steering wheel. I feel like I've never cried so hard in my life, and I've done a lot of crying. I've experienced many different types of pain recently. The pain of finding out what Louis had been going through, guilt. The pain of thinking Louis was going to die, multiple times, despair. The pain of Louis leaving me, emptiness. But this is a different kind of pain. This is betrayal. This is the kind of pain you can't even imagine, the ultimate betrayal. Louis cheated. Louis was kissing Luke. I am in so much pain, all I want to do is drive my car 100 miles an hour, straight into a lamppost and stop the fucking pain. I cant breathe. This car is suffocating me. I get back out of the car and double over, people are staring at me but I have no control, I can't stop the crying.

"Harry". I hear him say.
His voice ringing in my ears, the way he says my name, I cant focus, I can't think, I can't fucking breathe.
"Harry please let me explain, it's not what it looked like".
I need to get away. I need to get away,  from him.

Now that the grandparents are looking after Louis' siblings, me and the boys have moved back into our flat. I pull into my parking spot and pull down the visor to look in the mirror. My eyes are bloodshot, my hair is a mess. I slam the visor closed and get out of the car. When I get inside, the only person there is Niall who is sitting on the couch watching TV while scrolling through his phone.

"Quick picnic" he jokes but as soon as he looks up and sees me, his face drops.
"Harry, what the fuck happened, are you okay?" He questions worriedly.
Unable to speak I just walk over to him and break down once again. He wraps his arms around me, slowly lowering us onto the couch, never removing me from his embrace.
"Shh" he repeats, stroking my hair. My body shuddering from crying so hard.

After a while of Niall stroking me and calming me down, I'm finally able to control myself.
"Did you want to talk about what happened?" He asks gently, moving his hand from my head, down to my shoulder and rubbing softly.
"Louis cheated" was all I managed to get out before I started sobbing again.
"Oh my god" is all he can think to say and I cry harder.
"I can't believe this, I thought he would be the last person to cheat, are you sure? What happened?" He questions.
"Yes Niall, I'm sure. He always leaves his door unlocked so I didn't think to knock, I just walked right in and saw him and Luke on the floor kissing. So I just dropped the picnic basket and left, I was too in shock to do anything else" I explain, tears rolling down my cheeks and I bury my head further into his neck.

"Wow, I literally cannot believe this, I'm so sorry Harry" he says, squeezing me tighter and kissing my hair. Niall is very comforting, it's not like him, he's usually always joking but I like this side of him, reminds me of Zayn. This morning has been exhausting and I'm ready to go back to sleep and not wake up for a very long time.

"I think I'm going to go to sleep" I inform Niall, pulling away from his embrace to sit beside him.
"Are you sure?" He asks concerned. "It's still the middle of the day".
"I know" I sigh, "I just don't want to be awake because I can't get the image of them kissing out of my head, I don't want to think about anything, I just want the darkness".
He looks at me pitifully, "you're not going to hurt yourself are you" he asks nervously.
"No, I'm not. I don't want to to that to myself anymore, I know there's better ways of dealing with my problems. But for now, I don't want to think about it so I'm just going to sleep" I tell him honestly. 
"Can I at least lay with you until you fall asleep?" He asks and I appreciate his sincerity so I allow it.
"Okay."

I strip down to my boxers, turn on the fan and get under the covers, taking off my underwear once I'm under them so I don't traumatise Niall. There's something oddly comforting about being naked and having my body protected by just the duvet and the cool air blowing onto my face, I've always liked sleeping like this. Niall closes the blinds then lays on top of  the covers beside me, interlocking his fingers and resting them on his stomach. I didn't know this side to Niall even existed and I cant help but appreciate how lucky his future girlfriend will be to be with such a good person.

On any other day, this silence would be comfortable but today, it's deafening,
All I can think about is Louis and I don't want to think about him anymore. I need a distraction.
"Niall?" I whisper.
"Mmm?" He murmurs.
"Will you please sing something? I need something to drown out my thoughts" I plead.
"What do you want me to sing about?" He asks.
"I don't mind, I just need to be distracted by the sound of your voice, please".
"When you feel your loves been taken, when you know there's something missing, in the dark, we're barely hanging on, and you rest your head upon my chest, and you feel like there ain't nothing left, I'm afraid, that what we had is gone" he sings.
"Not that" I interrupt. He chuckles.
"Waking up to kiss you and nobody's there, the smell of your perfume still stuck in the air, it's hard"
"Not that either" I interrupt again. He's quiet for a second, trying to think of another song.
"You keep saying that you're alright, but I can it through your fake smile, you're not. There's a reservoir in your eyes, that you've been holding back a long time, what's wrong"
He breaks to wait for me to interrupt again, but when I don't, he continues.
"Darling you don't have to hold it, you don't have to be afraid, you can go ahead and unload it, cos you know it'll be okay, fire away, fire away"

I love the sound of Niall's voice, it's soothing. I haven't heard these songs he's singing before and I assume they're originals. They're really good. As he sings, I'm able to focus on his voice and on his words, allowing myself to get tired, and eventually, I fall asleep.

———NIALL'S POV———
After singing a few songs, I notice Harry's breathing has gotten slower and louder and I conclude that he must be asleep. Trying not to wake him, I carefully get off his bed and leave his room, gently closing his door behind me, trying not to make a noise. I head downstairs to the kitchen, grab my keys then leave the flat and head to my car.  As I turn the ignition, the radio comes on, which I immediate switch off so I can think of what I'm going to say to Louis. I would've called him instead of driving all the way to him except he's not allowed his phone at the clinic.

Trying to think of what to say isn't going very well, I'm quite lost for words as I can't believe this even happened. I turn the radio back on, deciding just to wing it and accept whatever comes to my mind will be right at the time. Soon after, I'm pulling into the parking lot at the clinic and quickly head to the reception.
"Hi, I'm here to see Louis Tomlinson" I inform the middle aged lady who had brown hair and brown eyes that showed gold specs in them as the sunlight reflected off them through the window.

"Okay honey" she says warmly. "That's all good, did you know where his room was?" She asks.
"Yep, I remember, thank you!" I smile as I turn and rush down the hall toward Louis' room.
I arrive at his room and can hear music playing from outside, I knock on the door firmly and wait for him to answer. He opens the door quickly, his eyes glistening.
"Harry?" He says before getting a chance to realise it's me.
"Oh, it's you" he sighs and turns back into his room, I follow after, closing the door behind me.
"Yeah sorry to disappoint you but um, what the fuck Louis?!" I hissed.
"What. The. Fuck." I repeat.
Louis picks up his speaker, turning it off.
"Niall, I can explain" he cries.
"Well I'd fucking hope so" I condemn.
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Surprise my lovers!! I finished my assignment 2 hours earlier than anticipated and stayed up 2 hours later than I should so I could finish another chapter for you legends, and so I'd feel less guilty for not writing for 2 weeks. Like, comment, vote you absolute lords!!