Saved In The A.M.

5-A.M.

BANG! Goes the door as the boys slam it open while running into my room. I'm sitting up struggling to breathe trying to force in as much air as possible.

"LOUIS!" Liam grabs my shoulders, "are you okay?"
I can't even reply I just keep panting and staring out into the distance wondering what the fuck just happened, even though I know what just happened.
"Did you have another nightmare?" Harry asks while rubbing my back with his left hand. I just nod my head.
"You guys can go back to bed, I'll stay with Lou and make sure he's okay"
"Alright night mate try not to stay up too late or you'll wreck your sleeping pattern" Liam says, still upholding his role of daddy direction.
"Night, hope you're feeling better Lou" Niall says as he walks back to his room.

——— HARRY'S POV ———

"What was the nightmare about?" I ask Louis as I sit down next to him, moving my hand from his back to his thigh just above his knee.
"I didn't have a nightmare" he says trying to fool me. However, it's not going to work.
"Louis you were screaming, and displaying the other same signs as when you used to have nightmares like heavy breathing, not being able to talk, staring at nothing"
"I don't want to talk about it"
"You don't want to talk about anything these days Lou"
"That's because it's no one else's business"
"Fine" I say as I get up to leave.
"Wait" he grabs my hand.
"I don't want to be alone" His eyes have turned glossy and I can tell the slightest thing might set him off. I've always had a soft spot for Louis, even though he's older than me he's much smaller and he seems delicate in a way. Cute.
"Do you want me to stay with you?" I ask him sincerely.
"Y-yes please" he stutters, clearly shaken up.
He moves over and I get into his bed but not too close to him in case I make him uncomfortable because he knows I'm bi.
"Is this okay?" I ask him to make sure.
"It's fine"
He turns over so we're both laying there facing each other. He looks so peaceful.

——— LOUIS' POV ———

The same look Harry gave me on the plane is the same look he's giving me now.
"I know you don't like talking about it Lou but I just want you to know if you ever have a problem I'm always here for you no matter what" He informs me, his kind and caring nature mixed with his messy hair from just being asleep and his raspy voice and his sweet smell and his gorgeous green eyes all combined just push me over the edge and as if it's a reflex I kiss him, our lips crash together like the ocean desperately reaching for the shoreline. After about 30 seconds that slipped away from me way too quickly to properly enjoy the kiss we just shared, we've broken away. That 30 seconds is probably the happiest I've ever been in my whole life.

"I'm so sorry Haz I have no idea what went into me, you probably think I'm some fucking weird fag wow I can't believe I just did that, I'm so so sorry" I say panicking about what just happened.
"Shhh Lou, I liked it"
"You liked it?" I ask confused.
"Yes Lou I've always had a special place in my heart for you but I thought you were straight"
"I thought I was straight too but ever since I met you I guess not..." I trail off.
"Stop being so hard on yourself okay? You always over react for the smallest slip up, you need to just forgive yourself and realise things happen okay?" I know this isn't just about the kiss but I don't care because I just want to savour that he actually liked it. I kissed Harry and he fucking liked it!
"We should probably go to bed" I say as I roll over. I flinch as Harry wraps his arm around my torso pulling me in, well aware he can feel my fat rolls and is too polite to show how disgusted he is.

——— HARRY'S POV ———

"Shhh" I say kissing his shoulder after I feel him flinch under my touch. I've hugged him lots of times in our friendship but this is so different, first of all is he even a friend anymore or is this all going to change? And second he seems smaller than usual, skinnier maybe, I feel like something has changed. Like the boys said I'm probably overthinking it so with my arm around his torso, butterflies in my stomach and a heart filled with love I close my eyes and drift off to sleep.