I smile at the morning light that peaks out from the near by trees and into our room, the room in which it all happened. The courage built itself inside me along with desire and need, I finally came to the conclusion last night as we done the traditional toasting after being wedded, that my body, mind and soul would be given to him, only him because I realised that really, all I need to survive now is for him to be in my life forever, that man is Peeta Mellark, the man with my heart and who keeps my purity and I could never imagine anyone else but him having it.
I feel his soft kisses on my bare shoulder as he rubs up and down on my naked waist. The previous night was a one that'll never forget as I was taken through the night, the way I was caressed and touched was anything beyond my in vision...
"You're so beautiful" Peeta whispers in my ear as I lay under him completely exposed but what surprises me is what I say next
"Explore me, Peeta" he looks surprised at first but knew that I meant it, so he covered my body in kisses, savouring every inch of my skin, I grew impatient as the hunger I felt on the beach has returned only to bring much more desire and need
I desire him
I need him
Although usually I'm in control and that's how I like it, it's part of who I am, though right now I feel vulnerable and out of my usual control. This feeling is extremely new to me but yet I like it, the feeling of letting Peeta control for once and even though he doesn't admit it, I know he likes it too.
I moan out desperately as my desperate area finally gets some attention, with the mouth of my husbands, now the Katniss I know would get embarrassed and shy away but this side of that Katniss is extremely foreign to me, being so bold with my body is something I never knew I'd ever be doing but here I am and I love it, no matter how un familiar I am to it because it's with Peeta, the man I trust with my life.
He stops just as that feeling of release started to build up inside me, I look down to where he is and he gives a grin as he makes his way back up to level with my face
"I want you to say it, I don't want you to regret it now" he whispers into the lightly lit room by our single bedside light
"I want you to make love to me, take me away into the night, Peeta" I whisper back and as he kisses my neck I feel this stretch of a burning sensation inside me causing me to claw at his back and causing me to moan out, not with pain but with the feel of the feeling at being so close with him
"Are you okay?" He asks as he stays still, close to me, the thought of us being so close and all he's thinking about is my wellbeing, this is why I married this man
"It's okay. It just feels a bit funny" I reply running my fingers through his blonde locks, slowly he starts up again and he gets a steady thrust going, I scratch his back at the feeling of how sensational this is and I bite down onto his shoulder to stop me from screaming out his name because of our old mentor who lives in the house beside us, will complain to us inappropriately and I don't want to scar him for his entire life, no matter how much times he's left me to clean himself up, sleeping in his own pile of vomit
"Come home to me, Katniss. Let it all go, all your troubles and worries" Peeta coos in my ear, we both press our lips to one another's till I feel that feeling of release again and after Peeta took my command to go faster, I release with a loud and triumphant scream, Peeta releases inside me not long after then collapses next to me on the other side of our bed, we hold each other as the thoughts of what we did replays into the world of our dreams, that night I had no nightmares, only a peaceful dream of Peeta and I happy, making the most of our marriage.
That night will be forever in my memory, I turn in my husbands embrace to be face to face with his, his baby blues staring into my plain set of greys. I trace my finger over his perfectly outlined face as he continues to rub circles on my hip
"You know, last night was the best night of my entire life. You looked like everything that kept you down finally disappeared" he replies
"Because it has, I don't feel that anymore. I have you now, and that's all I really need" I sigh kissing the red mark where I had bit down on last night, what I said was true well some of it was...
~9 Months Later~
With a final push the baby is born into this improved place we call home, I hate hospitals but they provide a new meaning as Peeta and I's baby is born into the world. This child who was created by to people with nothing but love filled into each word, each kiss and with every touch. This baby wasn't planned to be born so soon but with every worry and horrid thought that passed through my mind about all the dangers to my baby, it went away as soon as the cries of our child filled the room.
I hold the little bundle in my arms as I look down at her beautiful face, Willow Prue Mellark was born today, September fifth, with the face of an angel, I kiss her forehead with just alone pours every ounce of love I have for her into it
"She's just beautiful" Peeta whispers as I hand her to the arms of her father
"I'll protect you from every harmful thing in this world, including boys. No boy or man is worthy for you" he coos to his daughter making me smile brightly at the closeness they already have after being in this world for only two hours, I now I know that it's not just Peeta that I need to survive... I need Willow too because right now she's my weakness, the will I need to survive just like I do with her loving and charming father.
