Sander Sides Oneshots

The End

Triggers: Suicide, Depression, Self-Harm, Major Character Death
AU: None

(I'm thinking about making this a full-fledged book)

-Virgil POV-

I peel off my jacket. I can't believe I'm finally going through with it. The urge has been there for years, and now they'll no longer be. Scars line my arm, some completely gone, some from just this morning.

I take a handful of the sleeping pills and swallow them. I'll be dead by dinner. Hang in there Confidence, I'm coming.

You know, a year ago I never would have pegged myself for being suicidal. Yet, here I am. I know that with death in the Mind Palace the side actually becomes a wisp. The wisp of thought, a feeling to guide Thomas. I know because of Confidence.

His death was my fault, I was there and didn't stop him. It's the reason that Roman wants the Dragon Witch dead. Confidence, or Caden as we knew him, wasn't suicidal. He just had the irresistible urge to explore and thought nothing could hurt him.

Caden was Roman's boyfriend and my best friend. His death was the reason Roman hated me.

I turn on Pidgeon and sit at my desk. Sharpening my pencil, a start to write.

-Time Skip to Patton's POV-

I walk down the hall of rooms. Virgil didn't come out for dinner. He always came out for dinner, even if he didn't eat anything.

I come to Virgil's door. It's black, with a grey and purple grid. Mine's light blue a grey cardigan and glasses. Logan's is black with a dark blue tie and glasses. Roman's is white with a red sash and gold crown. Caden's had been white with gold stitches.

I knock, but Virgil doesn't answer. Again, unusual.

"Virgil," I call, but he doesn't say anything.

I open the door and let out a sob. A song plays and Virgil is slumped over his desk, unmoving. His jacket is discarded on the otherwise clean floor.

Logan comes running, and Roman does too. Logan freezes and Roman edges forward. Slowly Logan and I follow him.

Upon closer inspection, Virgil's dead and there's a note under his arms. I can't even look. Tears are streaming down my face, and I start to bawl. Logan rubs my back, and Roman picks up the note to read it.

-Roman's POV-

I pick up the note under Virgil's arms. I would never have thought that this could happen. Not even after Caden. Looking closer, there are four notes. One for me, one for Logan, one for Patton, and one for Thomas.

I set the others down, and start to read mine.

Dear Roman,

Bet you're glad I'm gone, but don't worry, I hated me too. If not, I just couldn't live any longer with the guilt. I'm sorry for killing Caden. It was an accident, I swear. But, I guess you wouldn't know that. Maybe you'll finally be able to hunt and kill the Dragon Witch.

In case you were wondering, I overdosed on sleep meds. I've always said I wish I could stay asleep for longer. Well, now I am. Murdered by my own mind, I would call it.

You couldn't have stopped it. Don't think about any of that 'if only I'd been better' bullshit. Seriously, don't. It won't get you anywhere except gone.

Sincerely,

Virgil

I hold back tears. I need to be strong. For Patton. For Logan. For Thomas. I can't afford to cry. I, just can't. Not after Caden. Now we have to tell Thomas that Vigil's gone...

AN- Yes, I did just end it there. Tell me if you want more. Tell me if you want a whole book. Don't worry, I don't bite.