Never Be Alone: Book One

Chapter 26: Regret

Longer nights and longer days I've waited for you but you never came.

~Unknown

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I must have fallen asleep, because by the time I woke up it was dark outside, my room was still filled with dust and rubble. The reminder of my struggle to get away from my kidnapper, evident in the room. I sighed and sat up only to hear the sound of a knock coming from the other side of my door.

"Issy?" The sound of Skylar's voice on the other side of the door brought me pain, I hadn't spoken to Skylar that night I was taken, my greatest fear was knowing I may have died not being able to just say goodbye to some of the people I had not only helped but also those who I shared a unspoken connection with. I regret no talking to her as much as I should have, now I had the chance and I was never going to waste that ever again.

"Come in." The door opened and in walked Skylar, her long blonde hair straightened as to apposed to her normal curls, she wore a black tank top, and blue shorts. I smiled faintly sitting back on my bed I tuck my legs under me and watch as Skylar begins to join me. Skylar looked at me concern filling her eyes, I hated that look.

"Are you okay, Issy?" 

"Yes." Skylar looked at me again her eyes still laced with concern, I could tell that she wasn't buying it but she didn't say anything else instead she looked at me with her sad eyes brimming with tears.

"I'm glad your okay."  Without another word she walked out of my room,  I stayed in my room most of the night, during that time many other people came in asking me the same main things Skylar did.

Autumn 

Mahogany

Ryan

Claire 

Sabrina

Nash

Carter

The Jacks came in at the same time.

Aaron

Taylor

Hayes

Matt

Each time someone came in I started to get more and more upset. By the time Cameron came in I was a wreck, I didn't want to face him so when he came in I sat with my back facing the door.

"Hey Issy." He said in a low and quiet voice, I didn't respond so Cameron continued to speak.

"I really missed you, we never stopped looking for you." I could feel my heart contracting as I listened to him speak. I somehow felt it was my fault that I was taken for causing everyone so much pain.

"Don't ever do that to me again, you have to promise me that." I finally snapped, I couldn't take it anymore I stood up making sure my eyes were dry before I turned to face Cameron.

"You think I wanted  to get kidnapped? Huh you think I wanted to let Autumn go through the same torture I had to.  But it's my fault right because I wanted this, because I was the person in Canada who was left behind by so many people where I got into a relationship with someone who broke me again and again." I started to scream at Cameron who looked at me with his saddened eyes trying to object to what I was saying. 

"No Issy no one is blaming you"

"You just told me to promise you not to get kidnapped again! I was kidnapped by someone I thought I loved, but I guess that love I felt was loneliness, since I was alone."

"You were never alone Issy."  Cameron yelled back to me getting just as angry as I was, I scoffed and rolled my eyes.

"Claire and Sabrina went to Paris, you and everyone else were in California, Shawn was on tour with Austin Mahone so don't tell me I wasn't alone when I was." I saw Cameron's face get red as he yelled back at me.

"You can't just expect us all to give up our dreams just to keep you company. Your not worth it!" My heart stopped, pain coursed through my body, Cameron's face went from red to broken as he tried to apologize.

"Get out!" I screamed but Cameron refused to listen, as he inched ever so closer to me, I pushed his chest hard and he stumbled back I was a sobbing mess.

"Isabelle please I." I stopped him from speaking I looked him straight in the eye, as I cried.

"I wish Shawn had never found me on that bathroom floor. I should be dead and now thanks to you, I want to be." I screamed at him, Cameron left the room distraught, he closed the door behind him. I had never in my life ever felt so much pain. I was never wanted not even by the people I loved. Throwing my balcony door open I look out at the dark California sky I look at the beautiful ocean, without another thought in the world I climbed up onto the railing. Still sobbing I stood their for a moment, not hearing the door open, I cried harder as I looked out at the water one last time finally making my decision. Well until I heard a voice call my name from behind me.

"Issy. What are you doing." I slowly turned around to face Shawn, my heart constricted more telling me to jump. I could feel the tears falling down my cheeks harder and harder each time.

"I'm leaving Shawn, I can't take this anymore it's to much. The people I love don't want me, hell I don't even want myself."

"How can you say that of course we want you." I shook my head at him the tears falling faster and harder.

"I can't anymore Shawn it hurts so much, I can't take all this pain anymore, it's killing me. I just want it to stop hurting" 

"I can help you I did last time I can again." He said making his voice crack, Shawn stepped closer to me making me want to inch back.

"Shawn, I love you but I can't take this pain. Just forget I ever existed and live happily." Shawn's tears became more prominent as I continued to speak.

"How can I forget you. How could anyone. You are my best friend, your everything to me, I can only ever love you. Only you and if you die so will I." 

"No, you won't. Please Shawn don't save me this time. Tell everyone I said goodbye."

"No your not leaving." I cried harder as I heard him speak this is what was best for everyone.

"Just let me go." I whispered loud enough for him to hear me. Shawn's eyes caught mine, as I let my tears go.

"Never." That was the last thing I heard before I let myself fall of the railing.

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Author's Note:

Hey guys sorry for the cliff hanger. 

But what, do you think happens?

Does Isabelle die?

Find out in the next chapter.

Until Next Update,

~Paige <3