kaitlynn rose // h.s

confusing actions

from: Erin
are you here? the wedding is starting soon. should I find a way to stall? I don't want to but I will for u

"Sir, how far out are we?"

The driver looks at me in his rear view mirror.

"We'll be there very shortly. Only about five more minutes left I believe."

It looked like we were in the middle of nowhere. The wedding was at some house that had lots of acreage. I had very little details. I text Erin back and tell her I'm almost there. I was incredibly anxious. I didn't want to be late after everything I've been through to get here. I'm doing everything I can to push down a panic attack right now.

Eventually he pulls into a driveway and parks. I thank him and go to pay him, which is when he tells me he's a hired driver and has already been paid. I thank him again and step out into the sunshine. I expected it to be gloomier since it was November, but I was very okay with the sun being out.

I step aside and quickly call Liam. He's outside in a quick manner and takes me in with him. I hug him as well as Erin and take a deep breath.

"What's your plan?"

"Don't really have one," I sigh. She nods and gets taken somewhere by Liam once she makes sure I'm okay.

As she walks off, I glance around the room.

Honestly, what was I thinking? Coming here isn't going to change anything, and yet I still did it. Coming here isn't going to change his mind but here I am. I shouldn't have done this.

Little too late to back out of this now, Kaitlynn.

I've been traveling for who knows how long and this internal battle has been happening the entire time. I slept a little on the flight from New York to London, but I feel pretty delirious right now.

The wedding was being held in the backyard, so I decide to head through the hall towards the open doors. I can feel my heart racing in my chest. What was I going to say to him? How would he react?

Before I can get out to the backyard, I spot him. Niall is with him. Since I'd only talked with Liam, Niall stops his conversation and looks over at me in shock at the fact that I'm here. Harry turns to look at what Niall is looking at and his eyes widen, but I can't read his face.

"Kaitlynn," he says breathlessly. "You're here."

He strides towards me, completely ignoring the fact that he was just talking with his friend. I look down as he stops in front of me, not wanting to look him in the eyes. "I made a promise that I would be."

His fingers brush against my chin, pushing it up so I have to look at him. He looks into my eyes for a second before wrapping his arms around me and embracing me in a hug. "Thank you. I can't believe you would do this for me."

He steps back and keeps a hand on my waist. Niall walks over to us and hugs me hello.

"Do you want anything to drink?" Harry asks. "Do you need anything at all?"

"I'm alright for now," I reply quietly. "Thank you though."

"Harry, honey!" Somebody hollers from down the hall. "Where are you?"

"In the main room, mum," he replies, laughing lightly. He absentmindedly wraps his arm around my waist again as he looks for his mother. My cheeks redden at the action. What the hell?

I gulp as his mom enters the room. I was aware I'd have to meet his family (obviously, it's his sisters wedding), but I still wasn't mentally prepared. I don't think I was even slightly mentally prepared for any of this trip. I'm honestly surprised that I'm not having a full on panic attack right now.