kaitlynn rose // h.s

girls day

kaitlynnrose: day with erin

comment by erinreilly: I want you to know that I am Monica, and I will always be Monica.

Other than seeing him in class, I haven't seen Harry since I left his house on Sunday morning. It's Friday once again, and Erin is waiting for me at the dorm when I get back from calculus. Harry had texted me a few times wanting to hang out, but I'd turned him down each time. I didn't have the energy to act like I didn't hear him drunkenly tell me he couldn't stop thinking about me.

"Hey, how was class?" Erin smiles at me as I set all of my things down.

"Average," I shrug. "Calculus can only ever be so good, ya know?"

"Yeah," she nods in agreement. "Which is exactly why I'm not taking it. You ready to go do some shopping?"

"I mean, I'm pretty broke right now so I'll probably just end up watching you shop. But yeah, I'm ready."

She gets an Uber for us and we head outside to wait on the bench in front of our dorm. The car gets to the dorm after about ten minutes of sitting outside. We get caught in some traffic, but eventually we get to the mall.

Before we start shopping, I convince Erin to get some coffee. Once we get our drinks, she drags me into Macy's.

"So," she looks over at me as she leads me to the dresses. "Are you coming to England next month?"

"Yeah," I nod. "Liam invited you?"

She nods and a big smile comes across her face. "Mhm. Do you have a dress that you can wear? I don't think I have anything nice enough for a wedding. Everything I have is very..."

"College frat party?"

"Exactly," she laughs.

As usual, I end up being her dress up doll. She's handing me clothes left and right and pushing me into the dressing room. For some reason, she likes me trying things on even though she can try them on herself. I'm guessing she just hates trying things on. I've stopped fighting it.

I find a few things I like on sale in Macy's, but the dress I like is too expensive. I decide to keep looking around, and if I can't find anything today I'll see if my dad can send me one of my dresses back at home.

We go into quite a few more stores before calling it a day. I really didn't buy much, but I splurged a little bit. I don't have a job so I don't have a lot of money. When we get back to the dorm, we immediately change into something more comfortable and put on face masks. We'd been trying to clear enough time to spend a whole day together for probably three weeks and we were finally getting our much needed girls day.

"So, now that we're comfortable," she pulls her blanket onto her lap as she sits down next to me on my bed. "What's going on with you and Harry?"

"There's nothing going on with me and Harry. He's my friend."

"Are you still sleeping with him?"

"I guess? I've kind of been avoiding him and avoiding doing anything with him."

"Avoiding him? Do tell," she nudges me.

"Well," I sigh. "On Saturday when I was out walking, Harry texted and called me drunkenly. I picked him up and drove him home. Once I got him into his bed, he asked me to stay. For some reason, it felt really wrong to leave him all drunk and out of it so I agreed. When I was laying him, he slurred that he got drunk because he couldn't stop thinking about me."

"A drunk man is an honest man," Erin looks at me pointedly.

"I know. That's why I can't look him in the face without wanting to blurt out what he told me and to ask him if it means something."

"Well if you like him, shouldn't it be good news?"

"You would think," I huff. "But we had an argument after the last party at his place. I wanted to talk to him about what we were doing and he didn't want to talk about it. Then he told me that he couldn't be the guy I needed him to be. Then after class we talked about it more and he starting going on about how he can't commit to me and he can't do anything more than what we're doing."

"Huh," she frowns. "That sounds about right for what Liam has told me about him."

"Don't say that. Liam doesn't know Harry like I know him. Don't go off of what Liam says about him."

"Liam has known Harry for like six or seven years. How could you know him better than Liam does? No offense, but I feel like you don't have room to say that."

I sigh. "There's certain things Liam knows that I don't and there's things that I know that Liam doesn't. It's all really complicated."

"Either way, the way Liam makes him sound... he sounds like the kind of guy that won't commit or even admit that he likes somebody. And I know you like him, but you're my best friend and I really don't want you to get your heart broken. If he can't get over himself and treat you like the queen that you are, he's not worth your time."

I can't help but pout at her. "But he's so sweet and I hate the thought of him not being in my life anymore."

"Do what makes you happy. I'll be there for you no matter what happens."

"Thanks, Erin," I mumble. "Do you think I should ask him about it?"

"I mean, if you keep avoiding him he's going to ask why. I feel like if he doesn't bring it up you're going to get impatient and blurt it out. If you want to keep being friends, then yeah I do think that. He should know what you're thinking and I think you need to bring it up."