Micky's Poems

Sunburnt

(Warnings: suicidal thoughts)

I stay here waiting
While the sun burns my skin
I should probably get out more.

I stay here
Now in the cold horrid lake
Just floating idly by

The current reminds me
Of two things that I know
And remember to never forget

At any moment I could drown
Despite the life vest that's strapped tightly
And the current can take me away easily.

The water is strangely soothing
Yet terrifying at the same time
Then that reminds me of another thing:

I've grown so used to death
I see it everywhere
So I know of it's presence.

The void is constantly calling me
Whispering in my ear
Giving me horrible ideas

I snap back to reality
Realizing that I've floated too far
I swim back until I can stand again.

Then another thought comes:
All these children playing
And all the adults talking, drinking with each other.

And here I am alone
Separated from everyone else
Hardly anyone notices me.

If it weren't for constant surveillance
And my bright colored life vest
I could easily be lost with the current

Then that horrid question haunts me again.
The same one that always comes.
The same thing over and over again

Would anyone miss me?
And quite frankly for my sake
I hope the answer is yes.