Micky's Poems

Waiting

I'm not sure what to think
Now of you and I,
Due to that closeness fading
Into a mere memory.

Oftentimes I escape
From reality, burying myself
In imagination,
And that memory pops up.

Immediately, without my consent
I'm transported back,
And immediately I get sad
Because I know how this story ends.

I never stuff those feelings
Of happiness from years ago,
But times have changed
And I need to stop waiting

Wether you've forgotten me or not,
We've grown too far apart.
I can't keep clinging on
To old messages.

But I can't bring myself to do that.
My heart is too attached.
It screams when letting go
And it always runs to you.

It's screaming "No no no!
I don't wanna leave them behind!
No! Please!" it begs,
And so I stop removing.

But now it's a vicious cycle
Full of memories and empty promises.
I can't let go of that memory
But I can't wait around much longer.

At those times I tell myself,
"I'm my own person.
I don't need them,"
But I can't stop remembering.

I know it's futile,
Trying to reconnect
Since we're both so busy,
And we've tried too many times,

But my heart still screams,
Begging to at least try,
Hoping to see you again,
And waiting for you to come back to me.

So until then
I'm pretty much stuck here
Until I either rip my heart out
Or wait for nothing but a memory.