TRIGGER WARNING: this topic can be very sensitive to people.
YOUR POV:
ethan is at work but he'll be home in a half an hour or so and you've been cleaning the house all day so while you were taking a break from cleaning you started to scroll through instagram and twitter replying back to your fans, since you also have a youtube channel. sometimes though when your looking at ethans instagram, there are fans saying very rude and hateful things about you, and how ugly you are and how dont deserve ethan, this really hurts your feelings and self-esteem. you've been insecure about yourself ever since you can remember, but ethan usually helps you not feel so bad. you started to feel tears as you were scrolling through the hate, but this one comment in particular made you break down. one of the fans had said,
"i truly don't understand how e could love her, even her own father couldn't."
this comment was so offensive to you because your dad had left you before you even knew how to walk. you used to cut yourself before ethan came into your life and you promised him you would never do it again but right now your just in so much pain and hurt, you didnt care about anything; you just felt numb. you walked into your and ethans bathroom and took out a blade and started cutting all up and down your wrist
you suddenly heard footsteps and ethan calling your name...
ETHANS POV:
i was looking for y/n everywhere but maybe she went for a walk or something i was sitting on our bed when i heard commotion in our bathroom.
YOUR POV:
you started getting really worried ethan would see you...you promised him
ethan: "y/n what are you doing in there?"
y/n: "nothing i'll be out in a minute"
you were trying not to sound sad and like you were crying but i think you failed because you could hear ethan asking whats wrong. after you finished cleaning up you pulled down your sleeve and walked out the door.
ethan: "hey baby what were you doing in there?"
y/n: "nothing e i was just fixing my makeup. i need to look good for you" you say slightly laughing...
ethan:"oh okay, but you already do look good."
ethan pulls you in for a hug and squeezes you tightly causing you to wince at the pain since your cuts were still new. ethan got nervous and asked you what happened and you just looked down and you saw that you had bled through the sleeve, and ethan had seen it. you could see his expression change on his face to sadness and slowly lift your sleeve. your eyes started to water again and when he looked back at you and had seen what you done, you started sobbing into his arms apoligizing over and over again. he was hugging you and when you pulled away you saw a tear slip from his eyes.
ethan:"why did you do that to yourself y/n i thought we had moved passed this..."
y/n:" i-i know ethan im s-so sorry i was reading through comments and someone had brought up my dad."
ethan:"omg y/n im sorry i didn't know people were saying that..."
ethan kissed you on you cheek and you guys went into the bathroom and ethan started to clean your cuts and was wrapping it in a bandages. you sat on the bed with ethan and just cuddled all day he told you how much he loves you.
a/n: if anyone has depression or is cutting please talk to me im always here to talk.
