Sunshine ( Matthew Espinosa FanFic ) ♡

Chapter 17: Tacos and shirtless Cameron Dallas

MATTHEW'S POV

I wake up with Mia curled up on my chest. I pet her soft and silky hair that smells like strawberries, she looks so peaceful when she's asleep. I stare at her eyes when they suddenly open up. Big beautiful pair of eyes stare back at me and I smile. 

"Good morning beautiful. " I slightly touch her neck and sweep her hair. 

"Please tell me it was just a bad dream.. " She whispers. I kiss her softly.

"It doesn't matter, I'm here with you, Don't think about it. " Mia covers her face again and starts to cry. "We still have hope! " 

"No we don't Matt. " She said. 

"We do. Maybe the chemotherapy will help, maybe you'll get better and we can- " 

"Matt I'm not taking the chemotherapy! " She interrupted me. My heart stopped.

"But why? Ofcoure you're taking it! " I tell her. What the hell is she thinking?

"No Matt, it only makes it worse. The chances are extremely small, I'll rather die fast than suffer. " She's hysteric. 

"Yes but there is a slight chance right? Why aren't you willing to take it!? "

"Because! "

"Because what? "

"Because it would make me weak, I would loose my hair and turn ugly. It would suck all of my strength and I would spend the last months of my life in a hospital. I don't want you to remember me as the sick pale and ugly version of myself. " She sobbed out. It's heartbreaking to see her this way, I just want to make it better but there is nothing to do except for just being here for her. 

"Mia listen to me, It doesn't matter if you would loose your hair. You are always beautiful, in fact you are gorgeous! I can't live my life knowing you are dying and we are doing nothing to stop it! "

"Matty... you don't know what it's like. " She cried. I pulled her even closer and hugged her. I sigh.

"Okay, it's your choice. I love you no matter what... " I wish she would listen to me though. My attempt to calm her is pointless, she cries and cries and sometimes it's more like yelling than crying. 

"I love you more. " She whispers after 15 minutes of me rubbing her back and trying to calm her. 

MIA'S POV

It's been four days since I got the news. Matt has stayed at our house over night all this time, he tries to convince me to think about the chemo but I'm not taking it. No way. 

I love him so much it hurts. He's on his phone right next to me. I just stare at the ceiling. 

"Life is so weird. " I randomly say. He looks at me.

"What do you mean? "

"One day you have big plans for the future, next day it's all gone. "

"What kind of plans are we talking about here? " He rolled on to his side facing me. 

"Well there's so much I want to see. I really wanted to visit LA you know... I guess it's only a dream now huh? " I sneer.

"Let's go then! Tomorrow! " He said getting excited. He lifted his body and leans on his arm. I look at him like I look at my crazy neighbor. 

"Stop being silly! " I kiss his cheek.

"I'm being serious babe! Let's fly to LA !  I don't want to just sit here and be sad because it doesn't make it any better. Come on baby let's go on an adventure! " There is something about Matt that makes me fall in love with him even more every second. He's so full of life and he has this sparkle in his eyes everytime he's happy. I kiss him and smile as our lips touch. I press our foreheads together.