Sunshine ( Matthew Espinosa FanFic ) ♡

Chapter 28: Sometimes you can't control it.

I throw my eyes open and press my hand to Camerons chest slightly pushing him away. I had no idea he was going to kiss me. I place my hand on my mouth to cover my lips. Cameron has this super scared look in his eyes. We just stare there each other our mouths open not knowing what to say. 

"Oh my god Mia I'm so so sorry I... " Cam stutters. I feel bad for him but at the same time I'm shocked myself. I take a deep breath and pull my hair back. 

"Cameron... you have feelings for me? " I ask him. Cameron is looking down holding his face in between his hands. "Cam? " He's not answering me. I can't believe he just did that, I have mixed feelings about being mad at him but at the same time I feel sorry for Cam. If he has feelings for me it's something he can't hide. But still for crying out loud, what the hell was he thinking?

"I'm sorry Mia I don't know what happened. Now you probably hate me for doing that, but since the day I saw you... I don't know, you're so sincere and sweet. I feel so bad, I'd never want to hurt Matt or ruin your relationship with him... " Cameron covered his face. I placed my right hand on his back. 

"Cameron I love Matthew and I would never do anything to hurt him... " I say and I'm telling the truth. 

"I know that. I'm so sorry I kissed you Mia, it's just that sometimes you don't think and then you cant control it. " Cameron looked at me, pain and sorrow in his eyes.

"Look, it's like it never happened. Okay? " I try to convince him by flashing a small smile. I've never seen Cameron this sad and its breaking my heart. He's still my best friend no matter what. Cam pulled me up and we walked out from the roof top. Of course it was a little awkward at first, but I'm trying my best not to make this uncomfortable for us. 

He walked me to my room and right before he left I grabbed his arm.

"Cam... So are we cool? " I ask him and bite my lip. He's still really quiet. I search for his eyes.

"We're cool. " He said.

"Like nothing's changed? "

"Like it never happened. " 

I pull him in for a hug and we stand there in each others arms. I must say Cameron just made everything extra difficult, but we're never going to talk about this again. 

I open my door and watch as Cam walks away to the elevators. I close the door and sigh. I shuffle around the room and then sit down on my bed trying to figure everything out. Matt's still not here and that reminded me to check my phone. Two calls from Darlene, 1 call from Matt and a text from Mariel. I throw my phone away and close my eyes falling on my back. Tomorrow is a big day. 

It's been like and hour and Matt's still not here. I get up and go to my bag to grab something comfy to wear. Going for a black t-shirt and some comfy shorts. I stare myself from the bathroom mirror. I examine my face and my body. Lately my mind has been killing me. It's like I'm never truly happy, somedays I'm just a little less sad than others. But how can I be happy in a situation like this anyway... I feel how my body is dying one cell at a time. I constantly loose weight and I'm so tired all the time. Matt's the only reason I even get up from the bed.

I hear the door open and someone walks in. I know it's Matt.

"Did you have fun? " I ask from the bathroom as I take my daily medicine.

"Where the hell were you? " Matt asked me. What should I answer? Telling him that we were at the roof top with Cameron all by our self doesn't sound like a good plan. So I lie.

"I didn't feel too good so I came back to our room. " Well that's basically what happened so... I really don't want to tell Matt what happened with Cameron, it didn't mean anything and Matt would only start hating on Cam.