Sunshine ( Matthew Espinosa FanFic ) ♡

Chapter 30: Time's almost up

I fall down and look at Cam. He's being silent.

"What did Matt show you!? "

Cameron looked at me with eyes that seemed empty and dead. I breathe heavily and try to keep myself calm.

"Someone saw us Mia... " He whispered. I can feel my heart turning into glass and falling apart, the smithereens are everywhere destroying my body and soul. I want to cry for help. I take my phone out from my pocket and open twitter.

Three pictures. The first one is Cameron kissing my lips just before I slightly push him away, the second one is us walking away from the club last night and the last one is where Cam is closing my door and entering our room. Nothing really happened but I do understand, this looks really bad. My eyes are now filled with water, I can't do this. I get anxiety and start to panic.

"I need to talk to Matt. " I stutter and run across the hall looking for him. He's nowhere to be found. I see Acacia standing there with her friends and I run up to her.

"Hey, have you seen Matthew? " I ask looking around. I'm out of breath and press my forehead.

"He just went out to his meet and greet booth... Is everything alright? " She looked into my eyes.

"Yeah yeah, see you later okay? " And I find myself running again. I need to find him, I want to explain everything before it's too late. The internet is a cruel place, people spread things that can kill you inside out. I love Matt, more than anyone or anything. And I'm proving that by spending every second of my life with him... Well the last second of my life to be completely clear here.

I couldn't find him.

"Matt!? " I throw our door open running in. Good news I finally found him, bad news he's packing. "Listen to me! " I cry.

Matt looked straight at me with no emotion. He had tears in his eyes.

"Nothing happened... I swear. " I whisper and press my eyes together. My heart is in actual pain. I don't know why, maybe it's because of the cancer or maybe it's because of Matthew. I really can't say which one is worse. He tried to walk past me but I placed my hands on his chest. "I can explain... "

"There's nothing more I want from you. Never talk to me again. "

He walked out with his bags. I guess it's really over. I didn't even do anything...

I hate the social media, I hate the backstabbing fans who only wish Matt would leave me. I'm mad at Cameron for doing this and right now, I just want to leave this country. Matt doesn't want to see me so what's the point of being here, I already did my meet and greet. I call Darlene explaining everything.

I cried for twelve hours straight, then I got some sleep but I woke up again crying wishing that it was just a bad dream. The airplane is flying me back to Virginia. I'm feeling weak and walking seems so hard for me. Have you ever cried so much and for so long that it takes absolutely every little piece of energy there still is away from you? That you feel like falling down and there's nothing inside of you?

I lost the love of my life.

They took me to the hospital again. I can't tell how long have I been here. At least I can just waste my days hoping this will be over soon. By this I mean my life.

Mariel skipped school for me, she's just sitting next to my bed in a blue chair and holding my hand. Oh I've seen the blue chairs. It's for the people who have no hope. That's when they pull out the blue chairs, for relatives and friends to sit in and stare at the patient.

I haven't talked with anyone for days, I can't even remember my own voice anymore. I can only quietly whisper "Yes please, " or "No thank you " if the doctors ask me something.

So I guess my condition is getting worse day by day. Mariel is holding my ice cold hand.

"Did he call? " I ask and I'm actually surprised, my voice is almost completely gone. She pressed her lips together and looked down. "I see... " I say and look out from a window. It's a sunny day outside.

"But you have me. " Mariel smiled. I smile back to her, there's so much I would want to say to her but I'll just leave it.

Night time is the worst. It's just me and the blue empty chair in the room silently staring at me. I can't handle this, my eyes are hurting and my throat is so dry I can barely ask for some water.

After a while they let me out. I change to some sweat pants and a hoodie. Wearing my own clothes feels good.

"Wow is it really this cold out here? " I shiver. Then I look over to Mariel who's walking me to our car wearing a tank top. That made me realize, this is it. My time is finally up.

It's been a month since I went to London. I deleted my instagram, my twitter and even my youtube account. I completely erased everything from my mind. I even shut down my phone but Darlene made me keep it close to me incase of an emergency. I've been feeling a little better, I mean I can walk and all but I'm still really pale and sick.

I also cut off my hair, everyone were making jokes about how I rather die than be bald so one day I took my scissors and cut off my hair. It was super long, up to my hip bone and now it's barely touching my jawline. Usually I just tuck it behind my ears. It's different but I like it.

I haven't seen Matt, he didn't come home after leaving England. I have no idea where he's staying, maybe Los Angeles or something. His mom called me the other day but I didn't answer her.

There's no joy in life. I simply sleep 24 hours a day.

"Hello? " I hear Mariel talking with someone on the phone. I really don't care and I just hide under my covers. "Okay... " I hear her whisper.

Mariel walked in to my room. I look at her, she seems really concerned about something.

"It's for you... " She hands me the phone. I stare it for a while, there's really no one I would like to talk to right now but I want to know who's calling. Usually Mariel wouldn't come up to my room to give me her phone so this must be special. I slowly reach for it and take take the phone from her hands. I lift it up to my ear.

"Hello? "

I hear someone breathing heavily, it's a little scary.

"Thank god... " He whispers. It's Cameron.

Mariel walked out from my room and I lift my body up.

"I can't explain how happy I am hearing your voice... She called me every day from the hospital. "

"Okay. " I answer. What am I supposed to say?

"She also called Matt. "

Hearing his name felt like twisting a knife in a wound.

"How is he? " I ask Cameron. I'm actually happy that he called, even though I was wishing it would be Matt.

"Not good. I've been trying to talk to him but no answer. We're actually touring together so it's pretty awkward. And the fans are going crazy, it's a little scary to be honest. I get like a million tweets per day, I get questions about- "

"Cameron I don't want to hear about it. " I cut him short. "There's a reason I deleted my social medias. I don't want to know about the fans or what the people are saying. " I sigh.

"I understand. I just thought you would want to know about Matthew. I've tried, I really have. He refused to listen to me. I'm sorry. " Cameron said.

"It's fine. " I lie. How could it possibly be fine?

"We have a event this weekend, I'll try talking to him. " Cameron said.

"Okay. "

"How are you? " Cameron slowly asked me.

"I'm fine thanks for asking. "

Silence. There was so much I would have wanted to say to Cameron. I miss him, he was my best friend. Now I only have the blue chair and Mariel by my side.

"Good. "

I sigh.

"I need to go now. "

"Okay goodbye Mia. " Cameron's voice was shaking. I pressed the red button and got up from the bed. I gave Mariel her phone and walked back to my room without saying a word. At least I'm home in my own bed...